STSP . loves <3

2011-05-28T16:39:00.004+08:00

MOVED, FOR A BETTER START
MOVED, FOR A BETTER START
MOVED, FOR A BETTER START
MOVED, FOR A BETTER START

2011-02-11T21:27:00.004+08:00

Another semester down, it's really really fast.
It seems that whenever you get used/adapted, things changes.
Love my class, fun, loving, jokey! :)
They're mad sweet too!

Gonna miss them and miss the bonding we have.
It's only th last day there's mad photo-taking.
It's much more enjoyable than previous, i'm really glad!

Now facing the horror, UT3.
Haven't even started studying, and i'm mad worried to think about anything else.
Sick for entire 2weeks, and it's not getting well at all.
What's wrong!!

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No feelings for the moment, and doesn't even wanna touch on that.
Even the one tht i really believed in being true is fake,
what's more to be being truthful in feelings?
It hurts more than anything, but i was the one who gave it away.

Like what they say, it's just harder and not able to enter,
the moment's not right.
I can't accept another one just like that.

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I honestly believe you'll see me as your only one,
but it seems that people changed, and your tolerance is that low.

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2010-12-31T22:40:00.003+08:00

Well, say goodbye to 2010.
But honestly, i don't feel anything about 2011 ahead.
It just seems like a normal day passing by!

I don't need any new year resolution, because it's dumb,
you'll never fulfill it, you'll never even rmb it!
Yeah, STSP said so, admit it, it's true baby!

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This year doesn't seem much of a different to me,
nothing new, nothing anticipating.
Only thing different is, i'm back to school.
Yes, official govt school not private schools.
But yea, i'm still kinda skipping class, WHO DOESN'T? :)

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I never once wished i'm not being me,
but i wish life changes like split seconds,
so you get to taste every essence of life!
My life was once exciting, but it'd ended. :)

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Fulfilling and yet not fulfilling.
That is to get out of town, without much people knowing,
because of some reasons.
And my bro & i wishes that they could join us along seriously,
i hope soon, and hell yes, a must!

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Life doesn't mean BGR love is everything,
your family love can be everything despite all day quarrels.
Quarrels mean you love each other, wanting each other to understand,
and to know they love you.
So, next time you quarrel with someone,
fill your mind with "S/HE LOVES ME THAT'S WHY WE'RE QUARRELING!".

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Life can be empty, without any objective,
but does that stops you from breathing?
I don't think so, put aside unhappiness, breathe happiness.
You'll then know how to appreciate unhappiness.

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So much things to be complete by holiday break,
but i think i can hardly do so,
i'm not into business mind, so to complete 3 business objective,
it's kinda hard for me to breathe, let alone think.

I've been so sleepy that my time clock changed,
slping till 11am then i wake up.
Ya-da-ya-da, i know it's not very late but my max was 9am the most.

Going out with mum & bro tmr, and i tell mum,
unless you wake me up, else i confirm slp until 11am.
So, make sure you wake me up.

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Enjoying my twist tequila.
Blog again.

2010-12-03T23:57:00.001+08:00

Karma is a bitch.

Been sick the entire week and i wish i wasn't!
It's terrible.
And now i need to think of what reason i want to switch course.
But i don't think the transfer is possible lah.

Okay, whatever, Busy weekend ahead!
ALL KIND OF DATES, I'M GONNA CONQUER YOU.

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Do you know by making you look good, ended up makes you look even more disgusting?
May december bless you!

2010-11-17T21:06:00.003+08:00

I really hope one day Blogger could consider partnership with Tumblr.
Cause both are so-damn-awesome to me lehs!
And i got to learn not to use html, cause it's way older version,
so why is Blogger so old version?
No lah, it's just i revert to old version!

UT is mad stress, plus that faci,
okay i can forget pulling my grades up.

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Honestly, if you can't keep up the change,
jollywell fuck off, seriously.

Emphasise again, (curse me ok, whatever).
Guys, not able to give compromises to girls is not a part of being realistic,
you're being a part of cheapskate, honestly.
What's wrong with girls taking in sweet promises or what?
We know it's impossible, but still we want what we wanna hear right?
It's the same logic as you know you're incapable but you hope someone say you're.

It's even more logical that no one is interested in you after knowing you,
cause you never change, and you never want to understand.
Best wishes.
(cont cursing me unwanted, i'm fine with it!)

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End.
Okay i know, flat nose, ugly face, makeup-less whatever.
Mum kept saying i should see the doctor soon. Zzz.

2010-11-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

Happy 19th in a few minutes time, can't help to feel so agey can.
Had work the previous days, it's mad awesome with the same people,
non-stop jokes and laughters.

Lady boss is like mad nice, let me don't work on my birthday.
If not i should be crashing in for tomorrow morning work luhs .
Had awesome people twittering countdown for me, mad nice!

I don't really know who will rmb,
but those who doesn't, it means something doesn't it.
But honestly, i no longer mind.

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My family are damn cute, grandparents & aunty ask me don't work(actually working),
they say they give me the pay so i no need work.
Like mad touching can, and i'm heading out tmr with them for a meal.
Sometimes it's always the little that last the longest.

Still wishing, and out of nowhere i'm thinking of her.
Aww, why?
Just saw suet tweeting: 2mins!

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Posting on th dot 1200! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WISH FOR HAPPY.

2010-10-29T21:33:00.003+08:00

Forehead is fucking bad scarring!

Funeral has officially ended, it's my first time seeing a burial.
It's really different from cremation, some people say it's less harsh,
cause there's no contact with fire burning.
But i feel otherwise, be it th pain given to the death or the living ones.

Dad's been at the funeral daily to help out, as their family issues are a huge mess.
Simple prayers were done before lifting the coffin, and while doing the prayers,
so many different kind of faces you'll see.
Some cried until they are going to faint anything, some emotion-less.

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The scene reminds me of the time aunty passed away,
and us, walking behind the van, sobbing our heart.
Almost cried when walking behind, i miss her so much that it's still as painful.

Otw to the cemetery, it's my first time going, seriously!
I always go to those that are cremations one.
Full of tombstones, and it honestly sends me goosebumps.
Th feeling was so direct and weird.
I still can't rmb the 'filled-with-stone-popping-up' scene.

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Coffin was aligned to place into the ground,
started the prayer while all of us were standing there with joss sticks,
it's damn hot i swear, th sun is directly all over.
Each of us picked up a small stone, and throw it in before they use the machine to finish the work.
It's damn disheartening, to see your loved one lying right there,
seeing the soils covering it up, knowing th fact that you're never gonna see him/her again.

I know cremation also does th same cruel way, but at least it's not as torturing as seeing burial.
Seeing the coffin pushing into the fire, and it ends everything.
Fire seems cruel, human seems so scare about it, but i think it's the best option to end misery faster. You end the death's misery, and end the living's hope.

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We spend our life to pull ourselves up, trying to go on top of others,
to get the taste of success of being the top of the people.
But once we're dead, we're right below everybody, especially burial.
Not to mention, there are people going to step on you(indirectly) all the time from now.
In short, life seems like a piece of paper drenched with water.

All was standing at the side, seeing the machine move to place the soil,
seeing workers and his son to do the finish work,
They're all stepping on th soil,
i caught his son smiling, WTF IS HE SMILING WHEN HIS DAD IS GONE?
He enjoys stepping above his dad or wad?
He didn't even offer a joss stick or do the prayers all along,
be it the last night's burning/prayers/burial, he stand afar to CHIT-CHAT.
He's only acting like he's the eldest and faking fillal.

Sun was blazing hot, my neck area at th back feel fucking hot due to the sun,
but the funny thing is i didn't sweat, i don't feel hot.
In fact, i feel so damn cooling tht wind is blowing.
But all of them are complaining "SO HOT SO HOT!" =.=
It sound creepy, and it really is for me.

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Th son claimed because he married a malay so can't offer joss sticks and stuff,
but why is his wife touching&cleaning up the surface of coffin area,
sobbing alone when he's not around, and his children burning incense paper?
He's the one having problem, and i hope he feels guilty towards a father who dote him the most/fork out time&money for him with all kind of investment and ended up getting nth from him.
He's a mother-fucker bastard, that acts like shit.
Everybody including the casket people also abhor him.

I hope the dead gets him back, so he knows karma hits him hard.
Fillal piety is something that comes back to everyone i believe.

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Feels that i'm definitely brought up better than them.
Be it the son/daughter or the grandchildren.
Grandchildren have hands&legs yet they want people to serve them?
Food's ready but don't want take, wait for people take for them.
Two of them(older than me abit) diao me, i diao them back, then mum told me their dad is a rich boss.
So what? It's your dad's money, you're just a bunch of steels.

Enough of blabbering.

2010-10-26T21:14:00.004+08:00

I realise people has been changing,
and i am not, still the same.
Is it good or bad?

I'm still tired,
after that damn counselling, even more tired.
WTF. WHATEVER.

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2010-10-11T19:06:00.002+08:00

School's starting tomorrow, FML.
Totally not ready for it, 5x9=45days.
FUCK MY LIFE DAILY.

Symptons of not-ready-for-school has been surfacing.
URGH.
Note to self: Shall stop skipping school so often for the sake of $$ & grades!
But i will still skip a little? Heh, can't help it!

Life's mess, will it change entirely after a night,
i certainly wish.

2010-10-01T22:58:00.003+08:00

Well, my msn is still screwing up as usual, so just try your luck to talk to me.
Sometimes it goes all smooth, sometime i don't even know it'd crashed.
And seems that no one seems to be able to help that.
Internet's not being well too.

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A blink, honestly not i guess,
holiday's left with a week and it's back to school.
I'm still not happy about school, but i'm seriously doing a great deal,
cause i don't wanna get dang, by hook or by crook.
And i want my allowance to come in and not flowing out.

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Sometimes when i'm in daze, i feel the world's apart.
And i'll start thinking how would i be if i choose to study better for O's,
how would it be if i choose to attend ITE,
how would it be if i choose to work my entire life from then,
how would it be if i don't study nor work,
but none seems to have an answer.

I don't have an answer to life too, i don't know what i want.
I just want peace, but peace equals to non-realistic reality.
I don't like the fact that we're compared in character, though they say it makes individual unique. Neither do i like that we're compared in education, eventually end of the day, what's education? a piece of paper?

I cherish life education, life tutors, life phrases,
these makes you feel you're living in this world,
but seems everything is changing like how the earth is spinning;
slow enough for us to realise what'd changed after a long time.
But th fact is, it's fast that we didn't even realise it'd flashed past.

Not having negative thoughts of life,
but just, life ain't simple, that's all.

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And nobody can choose without being selfish,
you yearn for that but you know it's an impossible desire,
you get and ignore what you have cause you know it's yours for now,
who the heck actually treasured and thinks worthy of what you have,
yes, until it's gone. Sometimes even if you get it back, it's different or the same.
In th sense that desire is still the ultimate thing you're thinking.
Admit it, unless you're telling me you don't have a heart beating.

2010-09-21T22:25:00.002+08:00

Okay, practically i think i'd bad-mouthed too much,
which causes everything that requires my attention to screw up.
Good job, and fuck you!

Firstly, out of a sudden sunny day, decided to download some Adobe software,
and some weren't done right and being lazy, i decide to ignore it.
And then, here comes the retribution, my laptop runs fucking slow,
damn pissed, i deleted the entire Adobe, then as you guys should know,
some webpage need whatever Adobe, and i got to install,

then, my dearest MediaRing Talk or WHATEVER prompt error,
out of frustration, i practically decided to reboot my laptop.
So went to school to do it, everything seems fine on that time,
seriously, i hate it when you visit for problem, the problem don't occur,
when you saw the problem, no help can be done!
And you got to pay for each visit!

SO, in short, ADOBE FUCK YOU, TYVM.

Secondly, after rebooting, i expected my dearest laptop to LOVE ME,
by giving me a great time in doing everything.
But, NO MY LAPTOP DOESN'T, FUCK YOU OKAY.

Internet ain't accessible, and i'm trying all kind of nuts,
which doesn't work, so i'm gonna give a call to Singtel tomorrow! FML.
And i got to connect to VPN which make me goes fucking slow,
and if i'm not connected, IT KEPT PROMPTING ABOUT DIAL-UP.
WTF, SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU LAH.

Get help online, yet th thing ain't solve.
AHHHHHHHHH! I'm damn frustrated while typing this,
so you can image me mouthing FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.
I know alot of vulgar, so if you don't like just stop reading :)

Thirdly, my window live messenger SCREWED ME TOO!
How wonderful, i signed in like idk how many times,
it kept not responding and disappear while i'm still appearing online.
So if i didn't reply you, it ain't my fault,
you can jollywell scold messenger fuck you too.

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So i don't know what will happen tomorrow, but i'm seriously pissed.
If i'm not talking to you, suck it okay.

And not to mention, had a nice time with Gayan yesterday,
except the weather that could just fuck off too.

I think twitter also have the 'fuck mode' since there's bug out there,
sigh, understand my feeling right people!

I shall stop scolding & cursing, and start saying BLESSED BE!

Sometimes you need to grow up, keep your whatever comments with yourself,
you can't make it, doesn't mean people can't.
Like you can't accept dreams, people can accept dreams okay.
And another one, pathetic ain't a starter, it's a fucktard.

It's hard to really do it even if people say "Live life once";
yes, and die once. Stop dying inside, constant reminder to myself!
Okay, i'd a sore mind who shoot whatever i feels, that's me.
Take it or leave it.

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I think the good thing is i'm working on weekend, so i can earn some money,
to re-mend the holes i've burnt.

2010-09-13T20:03:00.003+08:00

I hereby announce, IT'S OVER! :D
Okay, mixed feelings now lah, i don't know why.
Of course i know i didn't study entirely well,
so i can't expect good grade, just bless me with ACCEPTABLE GRADES ENOUGH LIAO.

Now it's fully holiday, yeah yeah!
Packed the damn lens and sent out ALOT today, i'm so happy to have those who didn't even sent me any message to ask about their lens, which mean they trust me.
And when i mail them, they say: you study for your exam first, no rush, don't worry.
This type i should really give them hug,
some damn persistent, keep emailing & smsing. -.-

I'm human too, i'd stress too, if you wanna spree be patient!
Saying how long doesn't mean will reach you how long lehs,
keep asking and asking and asking.

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Secondly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAIGAGA!

Okay, i know it's like advanced, but whatever lah!
Better than nothing right!
Hope you're okay & happy (:

Can't help to think back how long have we know each other, lol.

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Everybody needs to move on, i'm glad you do honestly.
It may not be easy nor right in some part of life,
but if you really think the previous one is still the one,
it's never too late to turn back after you moved on.

Thanks for everything, i don't deny that i'd nice memories with you.
You're good enough, really.

2010-09-09T22:43:00.006+08:00

Hasn't been wearing obvious lenses for sometimes already!
My eyes don't look good at all!

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Anyway, 4 modules down,
and of all, i guess science is the worse one.
I can't help to feel hopeless, of course i don't wanna re-take lah,
so stop asking: you prepare to re-take ah?
But i don't think i do well, i don't understand SO MANY stuff.
Just blabber off my OWN SET OF THEORY and CALCULATION.

Next week's maths, urgh, FML!
But i feel slightly, slightly only ah,
more hopeful for maths compared to science!
Blessed be!

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Studying maths tmr with someone's help, so yup hopefully it's going smooth!
Mum wants to go out, but will see how luhs.
AHHHH, tired.

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Sometimes communication breakdown is only because you don't want to say directly what you feel, not because you don't know how to tell the person what's going on.
It's because we can't even overcome our own thoughts & action,
how can we predict what we will respond to the breakdown.
And sometimes, it's because we're way selfish,
we want things on our own way, and insist how this thing should go through.

If you want it your way, don't get someone in the picture,
cause it ain't gonna go your way else that person is a robot.
The person might be important in some way and not in the other,
when you can't appreciate the importance, quit thinking of having.

RANDOM THOUGHTS, LMAO.

2010-09-06T17:43:00.002+08:00

First module down, the easiest of all, hope to aim for A for it.
And yes, the last question i don't know any shit,
the reason's simple, i don't understand th qn, and i'm rushing for the last min to leave the class! WOAH.

Now i shall chiong for ENTERPRISE.
And i'll be glad if 'ENTER'PRISE, can ENTER INTO MY BRAIN.
Totally can't rmb any shit from enterprise except th naggy faci's face.

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I hate exam period, they spam one SMS daily,
are they so so so rich?
Oh yeah, they'd lotsa money, cause it's from us,
so we deserve getting it via $0.05/SMS daily RIGHT!

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ENOUGH, i shall fucking study for the fucking GPA.
No no, for the fucking sake of staying in this school!
Yes, right, stupid school, i should be the principal, so everybody will love me!

1. Attendance not compulsory, recommend to attend 2/3 of class
2. Produce notes online so every students can read
3. Exams of course must have, but difficulty slowly build up
4. No early morning classes, night classes should be arranged.
HO SEH BO LIKE THAT!

Enough crap, time to study.
My dearest bimbo, TRICIA, study hard for yours too!
WHY ARE WE IN DIFFERENT POLY MAN! x(

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2010-09-02T21:00:00.002+08:00

Feeling fucking down, i know i deserve it or perhaps whatever.
Nobody could really understand th real meaning of what they've said.
And i'm so fucking tired that i'm not speaking a word of rebutt anymore.
This home is now suffocating me to feel silent.

Parents always think whatever we know will hurt them and anger them,
did they ever get concern the fact that what they said & feel affects us?
Or should i say, have they ever fear we get hurt from the words said by them?
Constant nagging is their way, but i'm sick of it,
can't you not just speak it nicely once and for all or scold once and for all?
Why is there a need to rub salt into the wound, i feel so disgusted.

Yeah, when you talk back, they will say these:
1. 长大了，翅膀硬了，会顶嘴了。
2，我说的有错吗？讲一下很不爽是吗？
3，我们以前都不敢顶我们父母的话
FAMILIAR NOT?

Didn't even say they're wrong, but why can't they know the limit.
And when they say about us, looks like we need to repent and realise it's our fault.
Dad say, if one day both of us die, it's because of the 2 children of us giving us heart attack.
I don't feel anger like whenever he shout at me,
instead i feel a sharp pain, a pain can never be ease easily.

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I don't even wish to show my weak side to anyone anymore,
if i ever wanna cry, i won't do that in front of anyone like how i used to in the past.
Reality and emotion is cruel, parents are like a damn rollercoaster,
bringing you up & down ALL THE TIME.
And we're like a bomb to them, cause we never seems to reach their expectation.
This remind me, why i don't wanna study after O lvl.

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Saw this in my old posts, i didn't know i'd so YELLOW HAIR LMAO.

Till then,

2010-08-28T21:45:00.003+08:00

I'm practically doing nothing these days except watching dramas,
but i'm super tired.
And now i haven't pack my room, mum asked me to lock the drawer after putting my stuff,
the biggest problem is, i don't know where is my keys -.-
FML FML, WHERE GOT PEOPLE LOST THE KEY ONE!

Money worry + Studies worry + alot alot of worry.
Ahhhhh :(

Sometimes, i just don't want anything or anyone to get affected,
so don't get affected by people so easily,
both will end up having a hard time!
RANDOM.

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Grace's daughter is super duper hyper!
Lucky i didn't change my screen protector before going her house,
she keep stretching her tiny palm to me, so cute!
But what she want is me to go near her, so she can pull my hair -.-
Grace told me that's why she cut her hair entirely short!

And she still wanna play with my handphone,
when Grace say no, cannot, she pull and stop.
Then pull again, Grace say cannot! she continue.
END UP MY FONE DROP ON THE FLOOR, SHE STILL PULL AWAY.
ZZZZZZ, lucky my fone nvr spoilt!

I was telling Grace, she's not fun to play when she's too hyper,
cause it'll be irritating ttm!
Keep screeching, yes screeching when she's bored.
WHY HAVE BABIES IN THE FIRST PLACE! whatever.

2010-08-26T13:56:00.001+08:00

My fav.

2010-08-24T10:42:00.007+08:00

Fucking Singtel got scolded by me yesterday, i practically flared at them.
Wasn't intentionally at first, was because:
1) i'm watching movie & my dad&bro keep kp-ing internet can't work
2) got to find the fucking technician number out
3) my dad got the habit to ask and shout when i'm on the fone with operator
4) it got my nerves, and thanks mum for shouting shut up to my dad -.-
5) they can't detect anything wrong, and appt down is thurs.

So i'm actually being super nice on fone become super irritating,
and the operator don't dare to speak -.-
And i said so i've got no choice, and got to pay extra money when internet can't work these days, and your technician coming down doesn't mean it'll be fixed.
And all he did is apologise, i told him i won't pay a single cent on thurs,
he say of course it's their duty, BULLSHIT!

--

Putting that aside, watched 2movies, i know i'm slow,
cause i've been finding the cinema quality movies, and i got it :)
Download was only 15mins, and all in my laptop, cool!
So when the internet was down, it doesn't affect me watching the movie!

I guess many has watched this, so damn suspending can!
Even my bro joined me to watch and it's awesome!
But the ending wasn't really a ENDING.

I was reading a celebrity blogging about this movie,
so i tried google and i got the cinema quality one (lucky me!)
So when i was watching, my mum came back and saw, and say "there! this is the movie i wan you to watch with aunt & me that time luhs"
Then she was saying, this one BU KU BU SHI REN AH(not extreme).

I didn't cried, just was shocked how the earthquake cause such disaster,
and i conclude: survivor is worse than dead in such disaster, seriously!
Later bro, mum & dad stand behind me and watch some also -.-
And this was the time when i called Singtel and can't watch cause i'm too pissed. :(

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So Zap called, so was chatting with him and off my laptop.
His bunk is very very very very noisy! HAHAHAH!
After a while, hung up, i saw something that pissed me double!
I OFF MY LAPTOP, MY BRO AND DAD CAN SURF THE NET!!!!!
THEN MY DAD LAUGH, MY BRO SAY: JIE, DON'T ON YOUR LAPTOP, SWAY ONE!

Can't waste that tiny connection right, went to use my Itouch!
HMPH, ALSO CAN SURF!! troublesome only.

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Morning woke up, i thought i woke up at 8.45am,
and realise i woke up at 9.45am instead,
i still stay there stare blank -.-

Watched the rest of Aftershock, and this was when i cried like i've been dumped!
I was telling my mum, if i'm the girl i won't forgive the mother,
but ended up, after watching, i realise there's nothing not to forgive in the world.
The mother chose to forsake her daughter & save her son, the daughter heard it.
And she was adopted, she didn't went back as she still blame her mother for 32yrs.

She met her bro in another earthquake when she saw an incident,
making her to go back to find her mother to reunite.
Her bro actually lost an arm because of the earthquake 32yr ago.
When her mother saw her, she kneel down to ask for forgiveness (sob much!)

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Another scene of earthquake also saddening one,
one of the mother is begging the people to save her daughter,
but if to save her daughter(pulling her out), the building will collapse further,
and will result more people to injure/die.

Ended up, the mother told them to amputate her daughter's leg,
the people ask her to re-consider, cause it's a leg, will affect her life.
Her mother then say: if i don't do so, the building will collapse, and more people die because of her, i can't be so selfish, i can't be sorry to your parents!
i know she(daughter) will hate me in future, i don't mind as long as she's with me!

WALAO, TOTALLY SOBBING OUT LIKE MAD!
Wordy enough, no more internet! good for studying!

Favorite from the movie:
1. Her mother: When you've lost something entirely, then you'll understand how exactly it feel. whole life has been into pieces
2. Her mother: How many can you find that will use his life to protect you, perhaps one or none in the entire life
3. A mother's decision, no matter what they do, the pain inflict on them is double
4. There's nothing not to forgive in the world when you've experience such disaster

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Got the tattoo, awesome much!

2010-08-22T21:32:00.004+08:00

After getting spect, i no longer need to stress my eyes to read subtitles!
But i've got the habit all wearer will have, PUSH THE SPECT UP!
Quit wearing lenses for the moment so my cell generation goes back to normal,
yes lens is killing all my cells!

Studied 2 modules only, 3 more tiring one to go.
CRAP! And i'm mad updated on twitter.

All i could say was sorry, cause i'm too selfish.
Too much of myself, too much for others.

Old song, but i don't know why i fell for it once i heard it.

2010-08-17T20:13:00.002+08:00

I'm freaking tired when i've got to consider other's feelings,
i know i've been not talking to anyone much these days,
and i'm starting to like this feeling back.
Not because i want to, but can you please give me a space?
And a space to let me study and spend my holiday IN COMFORT.

If you keep pouring negative feeling/question,
i'll shun even further, trust me on that.
I don't want to please you by replying ALL your call/sms/msn/qn ALL THE TIME,
this will make me even more hateful.

I know i can't control my emotions, so DON'T LET ME GO OUT OF BOARD.
Just leave me alone for the time being,
and i'll be fine when i want to be, plainly.
Whenever i know someone is hurt by me, it sinks in deeper for me.

AND YES, i'm just that hateful, i didn't state that i'm not in th first place!
I'm someone a person would least wanna know.
I'm also afraid, this me cause people who love me to go away,
so i rather you think i'm busy, and that's all.

Of course i know there's also people who understand & know what to do.
I know people are concern about me too, the concern is by not asking and not probing.
Because they know well about me, know that i'm fine, nothing happened.
If the constant push comes in, i'll shun you away even more, trust me on that.

2010-08-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

Gonna miss the class no matter what!
<3 RP E25E'10

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
No..

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

2010-08-12T20:05:00.004+08:00

I can't wait to say it's holiday like so-finally!
One more day, and i'll stop waking up so early!
AND I DON'T HAVE TO MORNING CALL SOMEONE :D :D
Crap, tmr i got class, my bro got e-learning, keep haolian.
And don't have to wear the lenses everyday, my eye can't get back to blur-ry :)

Got work offer of course take, no work offer must study.
Die die the grades must pull, like socks like tht, pull till cannot pull!
101% MUST CONCENTRATE, DON'T DIVERT MY ATTENTION,
because my attention is freaking easy to be diverted;
especially when my bro's at home, i can't help to play with him!

--

I honestly hate those people whom like super-duper kaypo!
So kaypo, nothing better to do in your life?

One of the aunty(grandma's friend) saw me at AMK.
Then i walk to her, she never say hi, like don't know me leh!
Expect me to go forward directly and say AUNTY WHY NEVER SEE ME AH meh -.-

So she did saw me, never talk or say hi to me,
and told my dad the next day; eh, i saw your daughter at amk ytd, she skip school isit.
Then my dad come ask me, eh, you skip school isit, why at amk?
Kns, confirm tht aunty say one luhs, then i say back i cannot at amk meh -.-

Then i was complaining to my mum, confirm is th aunty conclude say i skip sch,
else my dad won't like that ask one luhs.
Don't understand why so kaypo, saw me saw me lah, keep to yourself,
or announce to the whole world lah. zzz!

--

Anyway, i'm now addicting to 5th book of House of Night <3

Almost forgot to mention,

Happy belated birthday to this old girlf who's age-ing rapidly at the age of 19th now(so fast right!) :)

Got boyf no need anyone else to celebrate luh :)

2010-08-09T00:35:00.002+08:00

My fringe look so-not-straight despite snipping it off!
WHY WHY WHY! :(
Ahhh, no flawless skin for me, like-so-forever it is!

Can't stop spending money, that's th fact.
Aunty called from Hongkong, asking me what she wants me to get.
Like so random, i didn't have anything in mind, yet.

--

Finished the second book of House of Night, awesome!
In the mid of the third book, spell A-D-D-I-C-T-I-N-G.

--

Sometime i'm just tht blunt, but that doesn't mean i mean anything, honestly.
But it's a fact you got to look into it, search within yourself.
This is not going to change anything, i've promised.

--

Been practically wasted 2days of weekend, period.
Ah, why does rest day passes so fast?
SO SAD T-T

2010-08-07T22:59:00.004+08:00

YES, finally say goodbye to ugly long fringe!
Finally took the time out to use my scissor and snip them off.
Looking weird now, but at least it's not covering my eyes :)

Weekend without work seems so empty luhs,
this is th troublesome thingy in human.
When you'd things to do, and can't stop for a rest, you yearn for it.
When you'd nth to do, you wish you'd some stuff to keep you busy.

And honestly what's with the storyline of;
"i'm not being a bitch like her as a slut" when the storyline is mixing 3guys with her -.-

AWESOME MV~

2010-08-05T21:16:00.003+08:00

My hobby is back with new series of vampyres.
I know it sounds stupid, but i'm going in extreme manner.
I rmb i used to ignore people's call/text just to finish my books.

And forever, this brings new stuff for me!

NICE!

--

Maths tmr, can jollywell kill me with a knife.
I'm gonna stare blank the whole day for sure, again.
Don't understand why we need maths! URGH.

2010-08-02T17:36:00.007+08:00

Can't tie my hair like that, because there'll be 2 colors. LOL.

--

So nice to wake up at 8am(8.15 exact) :)
Haven't been doing so for the weekends too, it's so nice!
But tmr is not lovely day cause it's back to sch.

--

Paragon Metro is awesome! (Y)
Okay, it's bored at work, cause no people to entertain,
but when there's people, it's busy like hell.
Plus some aunties who came tgt, it became SUPERMARKET!

And i've got to say Paragon Metro has better grooming & service!
Compass Metro, all face so black one, and no greetings to fellow promoters,
but i heard their sales is not bad, who cares!
I can't find the checkpoint when i got there, aunt was on afternoon shift.

Luckily there's a few metro staff approached me,
asking me what can they help me.
AND THEY GUIDED ME THROUGHOUT Y'KNOW, THIS IS WHAT I CAN LOVELY!
Like honestly, how many staff in department store will do such thing.

And whenever they walk past you, they'll smile at you,
some will ask 'had your lunch already?'
LIKE SO NICE CAN!
But the not nice part is, first day tio nag -.-
Level supervisor say 'hp strap must keep, i know very hip-hop, hair must tie, after work then put down'
WHO WANT TO PUT DOWN HAIR WHEN GOT THE RUBBER LINE THERE -.-

--

Super tiring to stand so long can, ache ache ache! HAHAH.
Lady boss is nice, just voice abit too loud. :X
Colleagues are nice too, super funny & dramatic type one!
Keep joking around when we take turns for lunch.

Got some customers also very cute, got one saw my nails,
and ask "did you do inlay french manicure?" & "is the white part french or your own nail?"
Was applying Princess Rules!(sheer pink), then they ask me,
i was like er, no, tht's my own nails!

Then they will go "show me your nails again! omg!"
I was thinking, if i didn't trim, it'll be longer,
that's more O-M-G. HAHAHAH.

Best thing, pay was given even before i finish my work.
WOAH WOAH WOAH :) :) :)
After work, went to redeem my IC, then th guy ask going where,
i don't even know why i so chatty with him.
I did notice him looking at me when i was with my aunt in checkpoint & canteen area.
Still hold my IC, ask my name serene ah . LOL .

Next time i wan work at security checkpoint, so nice!
Can sit there collect thing only.
I was asking if i need to sign th book, then he say wan sign full time book?
Cause ytd th stupid auntie insist i must sign the part time book.

--

Enough words, bye!
Cannot tolerate those fussy customers, take so many nail polish,
end up get how many only! MAFAN.
Never gonna let my mum be one of those ppl!

2010-07-30T21:38:00.002+08:00

Here comes the tiring weekend, urgh!
Why did i even accept the job when now i'm unwillingly to work.

2010-07-30T13:22:00.001+08:00

Before i fall in love

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true could you really be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now before I fall in love

I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Oh please give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one that you'll always be

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now before I fall in love

It's been so hard for me to give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say

Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now before I fall in love

2010-07-29T21:31:00.003+08:00

Busy weekend upcoming, lucky monday is non-school SCHOOL DAY! :)
Sometimes i feel that times goes so fast, and when you stop to take a breathe,
you realise why have people around you changes?
But in fact, human changes every second!

Because our mind never gave us a break, keeps us running.
Like today, you seems to know this person really well,
next day, you feel that; is she the person you really know well?
Circumstances/status changes us, and we accept the changes unknowingly.
Making people around us to strain further when they feel helpless on you.

Okay, random thoughts again.

--

Say goodbye to formal, for the time being :)
Today's enterprise is seriously shit, i don't know a single shit.
Still waiting for my break, beloved break!
Aunty called to remind me to work when i can, so i got money!
HAHAHHA, MONEY MONEY MOOLAHS MOOLAHS~~~~

She's going Hongkong soon :(
Me too want go lehs~

Funny thing today, i really wore my dad's clothes,
and it's like awesome spacious & nice! :)
But the sleeve must fold fold fold -.-
Damn early reached school today, dad drove me and then my mum to Kranji Camp.

--

Guy loves to tell a girl, "if your temper is bad, it's okay, because i'll love it together when i love you."
AWW, SO SWEET RIGHT?!

Of course the girl will be like over the moon,
so sweet, sweet until the kopi no need sugar already.

Then, on the verge of breaking up, the guy will say,
"it's your temper i can't take it anymore, leave me alone, i don't love you anymore."
PAIN right, pain until you feel like stabbing the guy right to death right!
Don't stab also can, torture him mentally! WAHAHA .

I'm crazy today, real crazy.

2010-07-27T21:10:00.002+08:00

Tired ttm, why am i waking up at 5am when my class is 8.30am :(
Formal is so mafan, super duper mafan!
AHHHHHHHH TIRED LAH LMAO.

Can't help to repeat, holiday pl0x come asap!
Confirm working on weekends, aunty is not giving me a choice!
But for the sake of money, close one eye lah~ :)

Time flies, so fast he told me he's going NS .
Like few months pass then new things happen like that, HAHAH .

--

GAGA SAY WANT WAKE ME UP AT 4 SO I GO SCHOOL TMR. T-T
4PM HAO MA? HAHAH.

2010-07-25T20:00:00.004+08:00

Hasn't been resting for the weekend, i guess i'll die in school too :)
Can we fast forward to holidays? :(

--

Sat, went down to TTSH to visit girlf.
Stayed there almost entire day, gaga came down too :)
SO FORMAL, HAHAHAHAHHA!

Hopefully girlf will be fine soon,
don't think can visit her anytime soon.
Stay longer luhhhhhhhh, HAHAHHAHA.

--

Woke up quite early to prepare to be out,
th food serving was like super in a rush, and the bill is so horrible.
Bro ate so much prawn!

All was laughing when i use the big metal spoon to eat the rice,
cause others are using the spoon for soup one.
And i'm like the slowest -.-
Ppl waiting for dessert, i still eating my rice.

Cousin started his lame joke, one good one,
How do you make a blonde drown?
I like the answer, Place a mirror into the river
And he kept saying, hey you're looking up on me right~~~
Cause he's taller than me! :(

Then i kept looking on th floor and say where are youuuuu.
Shopped at Central, nothing much actually, mum pian xin! T-T

--

SO TMR IS SCHOOL AGAIN, FML FML FML.
I THINK I SHOULD TATTOO FML ON MY HAND!

Happy birthday Ben! OLDER AGAIN!

2010-07-23T22:36:00.001+08:00

So complicated, can't think if the right words to piece them up..

SUPER CUTE CAT THOUGH I DON'T LIKE CATS HAHAHH...

2010-07-19T20:45:00.002+08:00

Thunderstorm arising tomorrow LOL..
I love the way you praise me when the world ignores me..

Horoscope:(LAUGH OUT LOUDDDD)
Intensity has been the word of the day for the past several days, and your relationships are deepening without you even realizing so. If the opportunity for intimate conversation comes up, seize the day and open your heart. The payoff for this will be a stronger and deeper understanding of the person you need to understand you, and you both will end up with a mutual appreciation of each other. If you are single, don't be afraid to spend some time today flirting with that one you've had your eye on, a little teasing goes a very long way when it comes from a single Scorpio.

2010-07-17T23:38:00.003+08:00

A song can never express all your feelings,
just like words can never express the sufficient feelings you wish to evoke..
"So sick of love songs, so tired of tears.."

Whenever you fall, there's not always someone there for you,
so cherish the someone who will be there for you this time,
and learn to be here without anybody for you to lean.
This is survival technique to live, to not feel.

But who had learnt that?
Perhaps all are still wishing there's someone forever there for them,
wishing, anticipating, hoping, waiting...

No forever love, only non-stop loving..

2010-07-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

Super sleepy now, waiting for someone to end busy-ness.
Chatting with pp, miss her lots.

Seems like catching up with friends these periods,
like th beloved, forever no end talks de Bailei also!
Ytd chat with her, she like same pattern one luhs,
i also never change, HAHAHAH!

Sleepy, but relieved tests are TEMPO ended. :)
Till then..

I'm sorry if i'd hurt you, i never wanted,
i thought we could still maintain the normal balance line.

2010-07-14T14:21:00.002+08:00

Carl Jung's theory, still the most awesome one,
other than MB.

(Introvert, Intuitive, Feeling, Perceiving)
Stil water runs deep.

INFPs present a calm, pleasant face to the world and are seen as reticent and even shy. Although they demonstrate a cool reserve toward others, inside they are anything but distant. They have a capacity for caring which is not always found in other types. They care deeply — indeed, passionately — about a few special persons or a cause. One word that captures this type is idealistic. At times, this characteristic leaves them feeling isolated, especially since INFPs are found in only 1% of the general population.

INFPs have profound sense of honor derived from internal values. The INFP is the Prince or the Princess of mythology, the King‟s Champion, Defender of the Faith, and the guardian of the castle. Sir Galahad and Joan of Arc are male and female prototypes of an INFP. To understand INFPs their cause must be understood, for they are willing to make unusual sacrifices for someone or something believed in.
INFPs seek unity in their lives, unity of body and mind, emotions and intellect. They often have a subtle tragic motif running through their lives, but others seldom detect this inner minor key. The deep commitment of INFPs to the positive and the good causes them to be alert to the negative and the evil, which can take the form of a fascination with the profane. Thus INFPs may live a paradox, drawn toward purity and unity but looking over the shoulder toward the sullied and desecrated.

When INFPs believe that they have yielded to an impure temptation, they may be given to acts of self-sacrifice in atonement. The atonement, however, is within the INFP, who does not feel compelled to make public the issue.

INFPs prefer the valuing process over the purely logical. They respond to the beautiful versus the ugly, the good versus the bad, and the moral versus the immoral. Impressions are gained in a fluid, global, diffused way. Metaphors and similes come naturally but may be strained. INFPs have a gift for interpreting symbols, as well as creating them, and thus often write in lyric fashion. They may demonstrate a tendency to take deliberate liberties with logic. They see logic as something optional. INFPs also may, at times, assume an unwarranted familiarity with a domain, because their global, impressionistic way of dealing with reality may have failed to register a sufficient number of details for mastery. INFPs may have difficulty thinking in terms of a conditional framework; they see things as either real or fancied, and are impatient with the hypothetical.

At work, INFPs are adaptable, welcome new ideas and new information, and are well aware of people and their feelings, and relate well to most, albeit with some psychological distance. INFPs dislike telephone interruptions and work well alone, as well as with others. They are patient with complicated situations, but impatient with routine details. They can make errors of fact, but seldom of values. Their career choices may be toward the ministry, missionary work, college teaching, psychiatry, architecture, psychology — and away from business. They seem willing and usually are able to apply themselves scholastically to gain the necessary training for professional work, often doing better in college than in high school. They have a natural interest in scholarly activities and demonstrate a remarkable facility for languages. Often they hear a calling to go forth into the world to help others; they seem willing to make the necessary personal sacrifices involved in responding to that call, even if it means asking others to do likewise. INFPs can make outstanding novelists and character actors, for they are able to efface their own personalities in their portrayal of a character in a way other types cannot.

As mates, INFPs have a deep commitment for their pledges. They like to live in harmony and may go to great lengths to avoid constant conflict. They are sensitive to the feelings of others and enjoy pleasing those they care for. They may find it difficult to reconcile a romantic, idealized concept of conjugal life with the realities of everyday living with another person. At
times, in fact, INFPs may seem fearful of exuberant attainment, afraid that current advances may have to be paid for with later sacrifices. The devil is sure to get his due if the INFP experiences too freely of success, or beauty, or health, or wealth, or knowledge. And thus, INFPs guard against giving way to relaxing in the happiness of mating. They may have difficulty in expressing affection directly, but communicate interest and affection indirectly.

2010-07-13T20:36:00.003+08:00

I'm acknowledge to be that stubborn.
I'm not perfect.

Whether i'm able to do, doesn't concern you.
Shut up, fucker :)

Throat is killing me, again.

I know i'm stupid, but i can't help to fear the feeling i'd.
It's been long i've felt this way, but i fear i'm being brought up with th feeling,
and got smashed down directly and leaving myself hurt.
Previously i've been too selfish, blocking whatever tht's coming in,
should i continue doing that?

2010-07-09T21:38:00.002+08:00

Guess i need to ask my aunty for lots of hair stuff!
Cut, dye, rebond etc etc . HAHAH .
I'm sick of my hair honestly.

--

Okay, soooooo, i can't imagine myself for attending MOST of my class this week,
like so rare, but no choice .
UT is a invisible weapon, they cheat you too!
So, my science is a goner, th moment i open i know it's goner -.-
FML FML FML! Told my mum, my science confirm a goner one .

Feel like some stones were being thrown away after clarification,
knowing what i should do, and what i can do,
and not getting any harsh statement.

--

Time for nail trimming again, this time my nail chipped off in a beautiful way.
It's a triangle chip at the side, and it's so obvious,
got to trim off everything, had the habit of long nails already.
Till then..

I miss my blue fringe! :(

2010-07-03T12:23:00.007+08:00

Long time no post, once post complain is never ending!
Yes, complaints! I should open a complain company, super awesome!

My laptop got problem, idk is what problem,
and the fucking school with the fucking system is not offering any fucking help.
My tests starts on monday, how the hell am i going to take without laptop?
Urgh, useless school with useless system. Honestly i hate it!!
My home laptop is doing fine without the system for years!

So, acer is coming down to my house on tuesday to repair for me,
if needed, change entire hard disk. FML!
So they ask me to save whatever i can save of my datas.

--

Secondly, i've been complaining about my leg, so pain!
Some of the blisters are healing, some are not and is super pain .
Can't even walk properly luhs :(
Zhen de shi, ai mei bu yao ming!

I think the person who invented heels should go to hell!
I guess is in hell already? HAHAHAH!

WEAPON!

--

Working is so boring, not much customers one.
Come chit chat, ask direction then alot luhs.
Keep using itouch to online and chat with ppl, too boring!
Ytd, level one has mass dota matches, keep shouting -.-
Machiam like they watching soccer match shouting G-O-A-L.

Can dota-ers recognise the page, i always see on my bro's laptop.
I onced ask him to teach me play dota, he say "don't want you so stupid" -.-
IRRITATING!

New products in my shop, one by one i go try everything.
Now i'm filled with vitamins, and upcoming is the energy drink, got flavors somemore.
Tried the gingseng with lemon(gold), also not bad, lemon taste nice :)

--

Watching Eclipse later, yay! :)
Come back must study, but cognitive is quite easy i guess.
Now, i'm looking for laptop for monday usage!
Till then, i hope im not giving you wrong impression.

Headache, time for panadols!

2010-06-26T16:06:00.001+08:00

This is super awesome! Touching + funny + pei fu!
He doesn't know how to speak tht language but sang tht song!
WOAH!

Till then!

2010-06-19T11:17:00.002+08:00

So long since i've cried over a song, WAHAHHA .
Feel like buying the album but cash-tight :(
Enjoy! Those who don't like Jay Chou, just fuck off with your comments :)

Honestly what's haters doing these days, sharing how hateful, how sarcastic they feel for particular person/movie/drama in facebook/youtube and find it like so amusing/funny
Don't like just don't care, don't watch, don't speak lah!
I curse those people's mouth, finger rots. WAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!
*SO MEAN, joking!*

2010-06-16T11:09:00.002+08:00

I think i really need a hair-dye & rebonding soon! URGH.
But i feel like having my hair black, if black, means i got to wait all my black grows, zzz!

I'm so not in love with school honestly,
i can't conquer myself to get over it just like that.
Feeling so fucking fucked up + sleepy.

--

Can anyone sponsor me for tattooing? :(
I'd 2 in mind, both on wrists, i guess my dad will peel off my wrist skin by then? LMAO.
One peace sign & one my intials, i should right? hahaha!
SIGH :(

Till then..

2010-06-10T22:02:00.004+08:00

I love rotting at home, thinking for things to do..
Because i don't have to think of things i don't wish yet got to do..
But reality just need to be slapped..

Time is passing so freaking fast that i haven't start counting,
and here we're, get ready for the next new week.
Do you believe the world's ending or do you believe you're ending th world? LOL.

--

Anyway, been wanting to post this babies up!
Mum bought a big box to fit this 2babies of mine in, so that it can keep away from dust,
cause the clothings are pretty expensive =/
Th box cost near $40 -.- God sake, just a box man!

Okay, enough words, till then..
"Only ache will make you feel alive, real feeling of alive.."

CLICK ON THE PHOTO AND YOU'LL REALISE MY BABIES IS NOT SMALL!

(i know you can see my curtain's panda, love k!)

2010-06-07T21:22:00.008+08:00

Laptop is a hell tool that gives me troubles all the time!
Firstly, user profile can't login and need to make special trip for help.
And yesterday my window service has error and i can't use -.-
So morning woke up early to get help again! URGH .

Anyway, been not working since i've turned down job offers.
I know i'm just plain lazy, i don't wanna travel all the way to expo,
and work there like zombie, wearing strict listing . *roll eyes*
And time passes so fast that i wish i can click pause forever.
I feel like i hated time, because it make things complicated.

Okay, song to share! :)
Muse - Time is Running Out; i don't care if i'm out-dated or whatever.

So, been reading novels these days.
Can't believe i'm so addicted to this Blue Blood Series more than Twilight Saga!
It's also about vampires, but more of history of different clans,
and beautiful structure of all kinds of building in countries.
There's love, but it ain't the heavy dose like Twiligt Saga.

And it's damn interesting,
Vampires are Blue Bloods;
Humans are Red Bloods;
Vampires who drained vampires are Silver Bloods;
And Blue Bloods bled in blue..
Vampires' fangs are actually behind wisdom tooth!
I'm totally in love in this, but the mood killer is it's definitely linked from 1st-4th books, so you got to keep reading, i've finished though.

But there's another book, Misguided Angel if i'm not wrong.
And most sadly, it's only publishing in Oct 2010.
WTF, Melissa De La Cruz, please speed up will you? :(
The novel is so great filling with so many descriptions, literature way!

Raved so much alrdy, and sg's Blue Blood(1st book) has nicer cover page than th above.
I was stunned by th cover page so i bought th book,
well, that's me! =/

Till then!

2010-05-28T21:29:00.003+08:00

New skin done, i actually was tempted to switch to tumblr,
but well, i'm still used to typing in blogger.com i reckon .
Wasn't doing any proper post, plain laziness plus sick, can't blame.

Having breaks, so i can stop waking up so fucking early.
But honestly, i'm starting to think is my simple hope that great?
I don't feel that happy yet still, who knows might change .
Still living in reality, not fantasy right!

--

Anyway, mum's extremely weird ytd night when she's back late .
She was telling me she feel so uneasy, and kept me for suspense the whole night!
Till today morning then she spoke to me, she say she need to say out.
Her friend's husband passed away in an accident and she went to th funeral ytd .

Her friend told her this and ended up she feels so guilty & broke down ytd .
"Jessie, i'll never forget the conversation we'd 2 weeks ago."
Then she rolled back to 2weeks ago, saying she(her friend) came to talk to her,
and they were talking about her(her friend)'s unit stuff.

Her friend: Jessie, do you know B's husband passed away, unable to fight against the battle of cancer? It's the second one in my unit already, A's husband passed away before B's husband due to (something) at the football training.
Mum(Jessie): Really? Your unit like having bad lucks these days.
Her friend: WAH, then next is me isit?! TOUCH WOOD!

Then after 2weeks, this friend's husband passed away in a motor accident,
due to internal bleeding, rescue mission failed.
So, my mum feels that because of what she said causes her friend's husband to die.
I'm like super fumed, and tell my mum wasn't her fault what!

1. Does the matter of fact of conversation trigger death to her husband?
2. Is the accident that cause her husband's death or the conversation?
Honestly, i feel that she concern more of the conversation than the fact that her husband dead, else why did she said tht to my mum!
I even doubt does she love her husband that much not -.-
3. Is she trying to pull my mum into her agony and making her feel afraid.

If i were there, i would have said her straight to the face man.
She did not directly blame my mum, but she indirectly pushing the arrows to her,
making my mum suffer invisible agony.
She did not even absorb that her husband was dead in AN ACCIDENT,
she feel that is her husband was dead in A CONVERSATION SHE MADE!

Moreover, it was like 2 weeks ago, 14days man!
How can she just link like that, urgh!
Human are so indecisive, always making a point to blame others .
I made a cruel fact example to my mum, then she see my point .

If no one was there to care about my grandparents when my aunty passed away,
my grandparents are gonna blame themselves for letting my aunty go to Germany,
and causes this accident to happen to her. Is this the same logic?

SIGH . Psychological barrier man.
Till then;

Time to trim my nails, my nails is like longer than my nail bed. -.-
And it's still growing strong, no break/cut.

Horrible much!

2010-05-27T16:07:00.000+08:00

"Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody?
You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy.
But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either.
There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand.
If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone.
People have stopped being comforting and being along never was.
At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer.
You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait."

Feel like switching domain(impossible)..

2010-05-25T15:35:00.006+08:00

"Here’s to all the girls who waited all night for him to call, only to check your phone the next morning & be disappointed.

The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because deep down, you knew exactly where that phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, “I think it’s better that we just be friends” one day, & the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you.

You deserve better. This is your tribute.

Here’s to the ones who took him back, hoping that maybe this time would be different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even sneak out countless times just to see him for a while, because 2am had become the only time of his you were worthy of.

You started this out thinking that you & him would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. You wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell you he loves you too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when you finally heard it, it was like you were dreaming. Because we learned to settle for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.

This is for us.

Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried & dried all over again. Here’s for the ones who did their hair & makeup & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn’t meet you today. The ones who tried to, but just couldn’t quite believe it when people told them there might be someone else… even when we told ourselves there might be someone else.

This is for the girls who believed he couldn’t do it to you again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn’t bear to think about looking back on their lives one day & wondering “what if”.

This is for us girls who somehow managed to live through him telling us one day “no other girl could ever compare to you,” only to have him ignore us for the next month.

Here’s to the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn’t bear to even tell their moms what was going on. The ones who could just tell that were making a mistake by allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again, yet somehow still had hope.

You knew that you deserved better the entire time.

Here’s for the time he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.

Here’s for you who finally realised that you deserve better.

This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong, & remember that relationships are like broken glass: sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & (inevitably) get hurt. Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.

When a song that reminds you of him comes on the radio, turn the station off. When the day comes that he realised what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don’t answer the door. Think of the broken promises, & the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments & staying up all night wondering where the hell he was, & who he was with, & if he was falling in love with someone who wasn’t you. Think of how your heart would jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn’t him.

One day you’ll find a guy who’s worth all the tears, but he won’t make you cry. You may think that you’ll never care about someone like you did to that guy whom you always run back to, but you will. It’s going to hurt like hell, & it’s going to need time to heal, but the point is: it will heal.

This is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again."

--

6 weeks is sufficient to make me sick!

2010-05-11T19:29:00.001+08:00

Interesting article: Sleep position = Personality

Quite true for me though.
"- Fetus position - A whopping 41% of participants sleep in this curled-up manner. Women are twice as likely to rest like this and it is listed as the most common position. These sleepers are said to have a tough exterior but are still sensitive and may appear to be shy but warm up quickly.

Log position - If you sleep on your side with both arms down, you are a social, easy-going person who is trusting, sometimes to the point of being gullible. The study showed 15% of people sleep like a log.

Yearner position - A close third is the side-lying position with both arms out in front of the body, with 13% of partipants sleeping like this. Yearners are noted to be open-minded and still cynical, suspicious, and stubborn about sticking to decisions once they are made.

Soldier position - These sleepers lie on their backs with arms down and kept close to the body. This 8% study is said to be reserved, quiet, without fuss, and hold themselves and others to a high standard. Soldier sleepers have a higher likelihood for snoring due to the flat-back position, which may not cause them to wake up often but may result in a less restful night's sleep.

Freefall position - Those people who lie on their bellies with arms under or wrapped around a pillow with head turned to the side, make up 7% of the population studied. Freefallers are brash, outgoing, and are very uncomfortable with criticism.

Starfish position - Sleepers who lie on their backs with arms up near their head or the pillow account for 5% of participants. These people are good listeners, helpful, and are uncomfortable being the center of attention. People who sleep in starfish position are more likely to snore and to suffer from a poor night's sleep more often.

If you think you are one of those people who move through all of these positions, that's not likely to really be the case. Idzikowski said the research reveals most people stay in the same position all night and only 5% lay differently night by night. Also interesting is that the study showed only one in ten people cover their bodies entirely with a blanket, with most people exposing an arm, leg, or both feet."

--

Feeling much better but still coughing like mad.
Till then..
Back to school..

2010-05-08T18:16:00.001+08:00

URGH, bro is having examinations from today,
and i'm like suffering behalf of him .
If ever mum's gonna ask: is there any inconvenience with both of you in the same room,
i'll say: YES, mel keep grinding his teeth(due to nervousness) & snoring T-T

I totally didn't sleep, even up creaping into my mum's room at 5am,
fell asleep on the ice cold marble floor of my house,
and less than an hr, i got to wake up and prepare for sch,
is this fair for me!!! :(

Somemore TESTS are running up so fast,
seems like the pace goes faster & faster luhs,
i don't even know can i really cope not =/
Got to do more practice before test really starting, nervous*

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That day, watch this news, bro & me keep going WTF -.-
What's wrong with the sex bands nowadays, fashion-wannabes?
Actually it's nice, just nobody would think in such way .
Like what th news says, what color represent what *roll eyes*

Was linked with a rape in idk which country, reason being the girl wore a black sex band,
and he sort of snap it off if i'm not wrong -.-

Color Code For Sex Bands:
Yellow: hugging
Purple: anal sex
Red: sex, coital or oral, lap dance, (alternate meaning: with no condom)
Blue: blow job
Black: sexual intercourse, coital or oral, (alternate meaning: with condom)
Orange: kissing, necking, bare breasts
Green: cunnilingus or outdoor sex
Clear: whatever you want
White: flashing or gay kiss or french kiss
Glow in the Dark: with sex toys
Red & Black: 69
Pink: licking butt or analingus (Rim Job)
Silver: fisting
Gold Glitter: make out

The so call sex band game:
Player One selects a participant wearing jelly bracelets (Player Two).
Player One chooses a bracelet based on its color and pulls on it until it "snaps" off Player Two's arm.
The bracelet may only be removed from Player Two by manually breaking it without the aid of scissors, nail clippers, pocket knives, etc.
If Player One loses their grip on the bracelet, and it snaps back against Player Two's arm without breaking, Player One loses their turn.
If Player One succeeds in breaking the bracelet, they may perform with Player Two the act signified by the color of the bracelet, as agreed upon by the game's participants.
Player One may opt to redeem the broken bracelet (the "sex coupon") at a later time, but it may be used only once.

I GOOGLED IT LOL! ENOUGH STUPID.

--

--

Post should be ytd, but influenza hit me.
So so horrible like it's killing every part of me man.

Th doctor ask me do i have a fever, i said no.
He took my temp, and show me 39.0 deg.
After tht, time is so so so terrible, must well just kill me.
At night, degree went up to 39.5 .

Morning woke up to bathe, coldest water became warm water as it runs down,
slept all the days the moment i took my medi .
Evening time, drank milo just to take medi,
gosh vomit like mad -.-
Thank god bro was there, pouring hot water, taking tissue for me,
can't really speak, but he's always there to chng my towel, pour water for me.

And since ytd, he's been checking into the room to see how am i.
Aww, it's nice to feel their concern, but worse to feel terrible with illness.
Bought mother's day cake for mum, i don't think i'd the chance to eat,
aunty bought curry chicken over, another big no no for me! :(

Till then,

2010-05-04T16:29:00.005+08:00

(SO NICE!)

Mother's day coming, shld be ordering a cake before weekend :)

Invented a new theory, trying out tonight :)
Sleeping pills is not working for me,
alcohol will make one drowsy faster,
get the theory? :)

I can feel the burning everytime i drink e33,
still my favourite rather than cough syrup taste, haha!

Anyway, was browsing my old photos,
wtf, i got the impulsive thoughts of heading to a salon now,
and dye my hair entirely black!!
From golden yellow to black and to now .

Face like shit, LMAO . -.-

Curse tht 7-11 sales girl, honestly i hate 7-11! ><
Bought vodka, and th queue is long, she still can bothered to ask me am i 18 alrdy.
I said yes, she say IC, still need show my ID .
WTF! I'm already complaining about heading to 20s to my uncle,
whom is heading to 30s. LMAO.

--

I hate school now, make me tired, make me sick.
Sick in the head, sick in the mind, sick in the body,
sick in the death, if it calls.

Till then,

2010-04-30T19:37:00.005+08:00

I'm suspecting my body is having slow disgestion,
been taking sleeping pills from doctor, took half an hour before bed,
but ended up i don't feel drowsy to sleep at all -.-

In fact, i tried taking this afternoon, around 11.30am,
no drowsy effect like promised, but now 7pm onwards,
i'm feeling super drowsy, not tired is DROWSY -.-
Like what the fuck is my body disgesting/accepting the medicine!!

--

(MAC'S CAFE IS AWESOME, MARSHMALLOW IS EVEN MORE AWESOME!)

Anyway, been sick & didn't really attend school as much .
Yesterday mathematics was really tough, faci wasn't here so another faci took over.
Super tough, mathematics is enough tough to explain in theory alrdy,
tht faci still want us all to sit infront and kept asking qns.
I kept thinking: Die liaos luhs =.= like ask me i can walk out of the class better!

But luckily, my team wasn't that tough. Phew*
Excel is shit, able to catch up what's going on,
but the assignment is super difficult, i wonder will i be able to get 3points not.

--

Happen to play around, change hairstyle :)
P/S: Photoshop sucks, can't get the hang out of it entirely.
I LOVE LOVE CINDERELLA'S SISTER! <3

2010-04-24T15:37:00.002+08:00

1. Honestly, i feel so injustice, though i don't know what exactly is the reason!
How the hell can i get so bad grade when the comment wasn't that bad,
i guess i should ask her what's her requirement(like gaga said).
But i'll still curse & swear her cause i didn't expect that grade.
I expected bad grade for communication yet i got a no-so-bad grade!

2. I'm glad i finished my assignment for Kaplan,
though it's kinda of anyhow do, but better than not submitting.

3. I hope weekend hours are longer, and please give me a break -.-

4. Watched channel 8 show ytd, and i feel so much for that.
Content:
It's about Indian married woman got burned alive in their husband's house,
mainly because they do not have enough "jia zhuang" to give the husband's family.
They believe daughters are born to be wasting their money,
because eventually when they get married, they have to give a sum tgt with marriage.

One of the example, the mother arranged the marriage for her,
and ended up she was burned alive in her husband's house.
Though they reported to the police, th man was only jailed 7years,
and out again to re-marry, so wtf he suffered in th end?
The girl was gone forever.

Over there, they believed if they have to die, they must die in their husband's house,
and they cannot re-marry if anything happens to their husband.
The women were in fact labelled as jinx if their husbands die earlier than them.
They would then stay in a place with all widows or chased out woman.
And there's actually cows around there who can't give birth or something,
so it's like labelling them the same way lah!

And what's more unacceptable(for me) is they got to stay there and pray for their husband. Praying for a better living, but honestly does it work?
Was it answered?
I'm not trying to be racist or whatever, but honestly wth created these belief?
Making women in Indian like worse/minimal than a animal.

Like ridiculous that they still pray and practically live like a nun!
They have to be vegeterians, pray everyday for like 4hrs or more?, wear dull clothings and get ignored.
Where's their rights? even their children will abandon them!
It's so bad in the start to create this belief, it's in fact inhumane!

If this is so, is God making all human suffer in their life or it's just justice?
I don't know but i'm glad i'm a chinese and not living in tht kind of place.
Sometimes we can't blame people who run away from their families because of arranged marriage or whatever it is.
The dilemma is hurting them but tht's th way they can save themselves.
It seems like religion is not something worth going for when i see such cases.

This is not being biased, but put yourself in their situation,
do you want a life like that?
This is not being unrespectful to any religion, but is religion being taught to do such horrible act to people who doesn't relates to you in blood?
I can't help to think what if it happens to their dearest one, will they act like tht.

Urgh, i'm like cursing when i'm watching tht programme.

2010-04-20T19:46:00.004+08:00

Whenever there's Gaga, there's no laptop!
HAHAH! Cause Gaga is always so nice to carry my laptop for me :)
Today waited for her before heading hoome tgt, saw chinchin too!

Enterprise is super duper dry today,
can't help to feel sleepy and restless luhs .
I'm feeling sleepy now that i'm missing my bed badly,
why am i so restless man! U-R-G-H!

Just happen to realise, this laptop doesn't have bluetooth!
FML! Bluetooth has been my efficient tool, and now i got to dug out USB cable!
Novena side asked me to work today & tomorrow,
how the hell am i able to work man!

--

"Weather change, human change, you definitely change.
Be wise, you just need someone who can be useful to you.
And i'm sorry to say, i totally depise you.
What is your life? A disappointment to every single one, including your precious ones! :)
Don't make yourself look great saying you love them, in fact they hate you."

2010-04-17T21:34:00.002+08:00

I hope weekend can be like, 4days, weekday will be 3days!
That will be so awesome man! I find weekend pass so quickly now.
Sigh, life keep changing right.
Feel so tired, but i must prepare to concentrate.

This morning i woke up, and shout "fuck!"
I suddenly rmb i didn't do self-evaluation despite doing peer evaluation, reflection journal & quiz. And the system closed alrdy -.-
I wonder how, anyhow LOL.

First daily grade received, B, pretty satistified .
At least i didn't score too badly despite my maths being so bad,
i should really do maths nowadays .
Not to mention, my 2nd assignment of bridging is due on 24th, F.U.C.K =.=

Monday will be communication skills if i'm not wrong,
super tired to think so much honestly.

--

Anyway, rmb reading Gaga's novel.
There's one of the best reading, i'd question about this actually.
It says, guys know lady's "upper body",
date with her upper body.
If the guy leaves, the upper body is incompetent,
and uses her "lower body" to capture his heart back.
So, what if the lady's "upper & lower body" has been given?
I guess she gotta sob like mad already.

Finding a guy who love your upper body and willingly to love long ain't easy to find(nowadays).
He might be interested in your lower body, but he's respectful of you .
It's quite true, and realistic honestly.
Dad doesn't like the concept of mum talking about these with me,
but i don't find it a wrong thing, it's better to know than try right .

Some ppl willingly to give easily just to ensure the guy don't go.
That's the most stupidest way, your trump card has been taken away.
He wouldn't be having any feeling with you anymore.
I don't believe in the concept of "guy's need",
if they need, find a hole to stuff in will do :)

Not offensive, till then..

2010-04-16T11:47:00.003+08:00

Currently in class, awaiting my beloved TAI JIAXIN xiao jie to end for 2nd study period (:
School is hectic, quick and of course making me feel like stabbing a knife straight into my heart cause it's damn tired.
It's the duration of the whole class, but interaction wish i'm so so lousy at,
and my mind doesn't seems to be working well LOL.

Ytd was webcamming with beloved CHINCHIN~
Hair kanpua long liaos luhs LOL
Then had lunch with her , all year 2&3 sibei song,
no school day + late arrival of time.
I also want can!

Anyway, super tired to conclude.
I just wan to sleep, rest my blister & wounds.
Till then!

/Edited

Woah, i'm like super tired!
Been seeing Gaga in Ribbon(ssssssssssssss) daily, hahah!
Finally had weekend to rest :)

Anyway, weather has been real real bad honestly,
might be raining heavily but humid weather is more!
Nice makeup video to prevent oil blotting ruining your makeup (;
And of course quick, i realise morning timi

ng really pass them fast!

Enjoy!

2010-04-11T20:11:00.000+08:00

I don't know if i can get used to the upcoming old life.
I don't know how would it be tmr.
Sigh, i don't feel that good :(
But i got to endure and go thru yeah.

Till then..

2010-04-08T14:39:00.002+08:00

Dread the days passing so fast, i can't even have the preparation .
P/S: Blogging with random thoughts, not aiming anybody :)
--

When you need the person you'll say Hey baby!
When you don't need the person you'll say Fuck off!
People who are guilty will start swearing & say no way i'm this way! HAHAH~

We grumble when we're busy with schedules,
we grumble when we're too lifeless,
but for me, i will grumble if i'd met the wrong person(in any concept) in my life,
bringing wrong life into my life. Honestly.

So we can't blame people for being hard-heartened .
Cause good heart ain't giving you anything in return,
be it financial loans or feelings blabbering out.
Should we believe in fairytales? *good question*

--

For me, i don't believe in financial loans,
because all people likes to drag, likes to give excuses .
So asking for more, will only brings nothing.
One good example is my mum, of course with good reasons, and more.

Okay, tv time! ;)
I'm losing this perfect home time soon enough which is,
from next week, urgh .
But i tell you what, this is way better than doing nothing everyday,
slacking life away and thinks nothing about future .
I've been this way 2years, always putting future around my mouth,
but never much of an action, and i abhor this .

And i abhor people who are doing this way,
yes, i might be bull-shyting if you've not been in my situation .
Like what teachers says, we never listen till we wakes up.
True enough, i always wanted to tell people how precious is time & studies is,
(if i can make the time turns, i'll not be what i am now)
but this will never fall on them until the day they acknowledge future .

Like, are you gonna be forever stuck in low pay jobs,
working like that till you're old .
Nobody wants that, with the mild pay .
Some are worse off, never work and expect their parents to feed them.
I guess feeding a dog does save more?
Most importantly, work hard and try hard, no regrets .

Quoted;
"Never let the fear keeps you off from playing the game"

Goodbye! :)

2010-04-07T15:30:00.003+08:00

See how bad is my complexion thanks to th thing -.-

I'm going crazy because of my assignment, idk how to tell my mum i wanna defer .
But i manage to finish half of first assignment,
another half awaiting the lecturer to give me a call LOL .
And why am i a maths idiot?! :(
I read wikipedia, and was like WTF is that gamma icon etc at first .

I'm dread of tht orientation coming luhs, sighs!
LONG SIGHHHHH~

--

Anyway, i wonder if Gaga is back from Hongkong .
Miss her can, but no news from her man!
Saw this wallet, feel like getting for her HAHAHHA,
but idk if she likes it not =/

Goodbye :)

2010-04-05T13:45:00.003+08:00

Another week of waiting for my beloved PS Man :(
And fuck yes, next week is starting of the school .
I haven't got the ready-ness yet, why time fly so fast :(
Sounds a bit stupid lah .

Okay forget it! :(
Talking about it will only make me feel more worries.
Bye!

Heard this story, quite meaningful.
--

A scorpion wants to cross the river but it doesn't know how to swim,
it ask the frog, "can you bring me across the river?"
The frog says, "no, what if you are going to attack me from the back?"
The scorpion then say, "no, i won't. i won't attack you."

The frog then agreed, and scorpion hopped on his back.
During the trip over, the scorpion attacked the frog and both drown into the water.
Before dying, the frog asked, "why did you attack me when you said you won't?"
The scorpion then say, "i'm sorry, that's my instinct."

--

I find it quite meaningful, it's like we have an instinct to live on,
the instinct might be kind, hurtful, but that's us .
We might be mean to people without the intention, but that's what we do with our instincts.

Example, when we said mean stuff to someone, knowing that this should be said but yet afraid to hurt their feelings.
On the think back, you might think it's hurtful to them yet it's your direct point you wanna tell them yet afraid.
So... sometime giving your instincts a quick job is good too. (:

/Edited

Received this e-mail, and was wondering whether isit real so went to check it out.

Content:
A woman at the nightclub in Cobar, Singapore on Saturday night was taken by 5 men, who according to hospital and police reports, gang raped her before dumping her.

Unable to remember the events of the evening, tests later confirmed the repeated rape along with traces of Rohypnol in her blood, with Progesterex, which is essentially a small sterilization pill.

This drug is now being used by rapists at parties to rape and sterilize their victims. Progesterex is available to vets to sterilize large animals.
Rumor has it that Progesterex is being used together with Rohypnol, the date rape drug.

As with Rohypnol, all they have to do is drop it into the girls drink.

The girl can't remember a thing the next morning, of all that had taken place the night before.
Progesterex, which dissolves in drinks just as easily, is such that the victim doesn't conceive from the rape and the rapist needn't worry about having a paternity test identifying him months later.

The drugs effects are not temporary- They are permanent!

Progesterex was designed to sterilize horses. Any female who takes it will never be able to conceive.

The bastards can get this drug from anyone who is in vet school or any university.

It's that easy, and Progesterex is about to break out big every where.

Believe it or not, there are even sites on the Internet telling people how to use it. Please COPY this to everyone you know, especially girls.

Be careful when you're out, and don't leave your drink unattended. Please make the effort to pass this onto all you know......

Guys, please inform all your female friends and relatives.
Girls, keep your drinks safe at all times, and men, look after the girls you're with.

Obviously fake luhs, went to wiki the words and found this link:
I can't seems to activate html code, so just copy & paste!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Progesterex
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Progesterex
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Progesterex
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Progesterex

Joke of the day k!

2010-04-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

Funny videos, non-stop laughing!
WALAOS, Dad's car out of battery, it's been 1hr30mins,
and the hokkien mee he bought is also not yet back for 1hr30mins.
I guess when it's back, i can throw the noodles down yet didn't split out -.-

Bye!

SAY WOAH!

WOAH AGAIN!

2010-03-31T15:55:00.003+08:00

Like woah, impressed!
URGH, my both eyes are hurting th whole day, idk why :(

IMPRESSED!
IMPRESSED!
WONDER OF MAKEUP, LMAO!

Kitty is really pretty, here blog: Click Here

2010-03-30T13:51:00.004+08:00

(Need a rebonding for fringe & cut, i just have it cut about 1-2 weeks ago -.-)

I hate my fringe not straight, so awful!!!!
Anyway, my skin complexion is healing ABIT.
Know why, i can wash my face with facial foam, peeling foam 4times a day,
i know it's bad, and will hurt the skin, i don't care -.-
I feel better and cleaner after every wash LOL!

I'm gonna visit Grace's baby girl, whom is so cute!!!! :)
Soon i guess, but i'm having work this week .
Like woah, lucky job came by to sew the hole i've made within 2hrs ytd!
I actually spent $90 at one go for stuff i've been wanting,
the feeling is great, but the hole is burning up -.-

And my pay ain't here yet, and my mum hasn't paid me my money.
So, how can i get a blackberry!!!! :(
I swear i'm gonna get, but mum say must tell my dad, zzz!
My dad confirm scold even though is use our money one luhs .
Told my mum, you must co-operate with me as usual then :)

But it's okay, just a little while more, i'm back as an official student :)
So, i wonder how much will my allowance be.
Like step anxious like that, but 2years no allowance alrdy lehs .
I've survived by myself in financial these 2years, YAY!
No wonder aunty like to say: "Serene is not dumb, can study one, and smart too, only being too spoilt and smart in the wrong way"
BUT I DISAGREE I'M VERY SPOILT OKAY, I'M JUST SPOILT IN 10%!

ALL PARENTS WOULD LIKE TO SPOILT THEIR CHILDRENS &
ALL CHILDRENS WISH TO BE SPOILT BY THEIR PARENTS!
It's logical okay!

--

Love my hair color, but the black roots are coming out too fast,
even my bro will pull my hair and say, "Jie, your black color come out liaos, so obvious luhs" =.=||

--

(BaMei is uber cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeezxzx!)
(Actually this guy is better than Wu Lang, only more arrogant)

Was chasing the show Young Warrior of the Yang Clan, after watching some ep in channel 8.
It's damn nice lah, then later part on, at the JinShaTan.
And i cried like mad -.-
My tears recently comes very fast one, but this is really touching&saddening.
Emotional are horrible creatures too!
MUST WATCH OKAY! :)

2010-03-28T18:11:00.006+08:00

There's no fucking use of sleeping early to prepare the next day man!
Went to bed at 10pm, okay around 10.30pm.
And i've rmb to put alarm, yet my alarm didn't rang AT ALL!
I expect the music of Nobody blasting -.-

So i'm suppose to reach by 9am.
I woke up at 8am, FYI i got to reach town at 9am.
Jitao go bathe, done the ever fastest makeup within 5mins,
that is toner, eyeliner, contact lens and changed my clothes.
NEVER EVER RUSH LIKE THAT I TELL YOU!
And expected my eyeliner went haywire, tht's bad about liquid eyeliner,
and it does went out of the eye curve, but turn to cateye line, THANK GOD!

Dad's driving me, but he needs to have his breakfast,
so slowly ate our breakfast then drive over.
Highway so jam, DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SO MANY CARS IN THE MORNING!
WEEKEND LEHS! SHOULD SLEEP RIGHT!

--

Reached there, the lesson was about to start only.
Am i lucky or the lecturer is too slow? LOL
So business mathematics is all about POSSIBILITIES, VENN DIAGRAM.
So in simple term, secondary 4's work LOL.
But he did it in a much complicated way, so there's formula.
And rules, like what combination rules, permentration rules whatever!

Took off during lunch break, i'm damn bored there,
i was playing Lady Gaga Extreme at there -.-
And when i'm listening to the section i don't understand,
my ears sort of got stuck for the moment then back again.
I can even fall asleep -.- ZZZZ!

--

Anyway, finally persuade my mum to open th liquor choco her army boys got for her,
and the packaging was nice! ;)

The problem is, i can't even finish one cause th liquor is kinda strong -.-
And the liquor is not in liquid, idk why, probably in the freezer too long?
I shared one with my mum, th entire choco was covered with flavoured liquor,
it's awesome & nice, but later i need a drink cause the liquor is something like harden cream kind of texture.
So it's fucking concentrated luhs!

See picture for better convinced, it's entirely harden, no liquid.
URGH! I need a glass of water to stop the weird hydration LMAO!

(Creamy color part, the whole "bottle" is filled with this!)

CIAOS!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BRO ANYWAY!
Sighs, he's getting older, me too :(

2010-03-27T22:03:00.002+08:00

Can't seem to upload this in facebook, something's wrong -.-
Anyway, watch this, first time you'll find it disgusting,
second time, you'll laugh non stop!
My bro intro me this! WATCH!

Guess what's the most inefficient weapon?

S-P-O-O-N!
I can't help but giggling now! Got to sleep to get ready for tmr morning class!
Goodbye!

P/S: Had a nice chat with Rachel (:

2010-03-26T17:05:00.002+08:00

Watching tv now, so i'm sitting here typing...
Next min, i'm in front to watch tv :)
Anyway, finally, yes finally i've collected my reservation!

I've been saying i'll be going, i'll be going.
From last sunday till now -.-
Due to boredom, watch 27Dresses, i know old movie right!
But honestly, awesome! So nice!
And the last min with so many bride-maids were even more fascinating!

--

Okay, anyway, tht's not my main point of blogging.
Not forgetting, I LOVE TRICIA! STILL THE SAME PRETTY CUTENESS CAN!
Okay, not diverting topic, i'm fucking frustrated though i know i deserve it(somehow)

Bro was having meet-the-parent session coming next month,
and he told me something. Cause was planning if can, i'll go behalf of my mum,
so my mum need not make any leave on tht day since it's weekday.
The teacher, MDM X! said cannot,
MDM X: Cannot, later your sis scold you, no impact, your mum scold better, if not ask your dad to come.

So my mum got to go, else my dad go, not a good idea.
I rmb my dad came when i was in school, and i rmb how he scolded Roderick Lim :X
And what is frustrating is not yet up, MDM X said tht parents come so they can scold the child infront of them.
HEY, WTF WRONG IS WITH OUR NICE TEACHERS?
YOU LIKE SEEING PARENTS SCOLD CHILDREN?
THAT'S WHY YOU CREATED MEET THE PARENT SESSION? WTF?

I was telling my bro, can don't ask dad go don't ask luhs,
but i can confirm my dad won't scold (me) infront of teacher .
He will ask the teacher instead whether had they did their job,
else why is the child not improving or having such grades?

Then, i've decided to go with mum on tht day, see if the MDM X still dare say me not.
Cause she told my bro this;
MDM X: Don't tell your sister, but she's not a good role model for you,
so why should she come, she will implicate you.
WALAO, I HEAR THIS, JITAO ANGER 100% LEHS!
And dad was there, i jitao scold FUCK, SHE KNOW ME ALOT MEH, KP SO MUCH! -.-

Yeah, i might not be a good student, a good grade student like she wants,
but hello, i've fucking regretted okay, my parents haven't comment me you say shit.
You think i feel happy thinking back i don't study well,
and another thing, tht particular subject i failed since primary,
and i swear i did tried my best, but i still failed.

I don't think she has the right to say me when she don't know what's going on,
ever since i've left the fucking secondary school.
And everyone has regrets, i'd mine too, i might be the worse student of hers,
but ain't that too much to talk bad infront of my brother?
URGH FUCK, WHY MUST SHE TEACH MY BROTHER.
I don't mean she don't teach well(maybe she doesn't to mild extend).

OKAY, FLARE FINISH,
I GUESS PEOPLE WHO ARE IN MY SECONDARY KNOW WHO IS MDM X,
BUT IF YOU WANNA KNOW , ASK ME :)

2010-03-25T15:01:00.003+08:00

Finally SingTel internet works!
Confirm signing Starhub after this plan ends -.-

Been working for the past 2 days,
fell in love with the white choco mocha from Tully's!
AWESOME! And nicer than Starbucks IMO.

Work was nice with Pui Hoon, indeed a relaxing company .
But the korean people came and made lots of stuff to do -.-

--

Bought this balm foundation from Gmarket, has been wanting this .
Before tht, went to Etude House @ Retail, super expensive lah!
SGD$47 or 49 i can't really rmb -.-
So bought it from Gmarket, cause the price is indeed cheaper.

Bought from the seller directly from Korea via EMS .
Th balm itself cost $28, another $3 for EMS .
Enough cheap and save alot of money can!!
Though you got to wait for about 6working days, but you save alot of money luhs!

Really can't imagine Singapore Taxes, Shipping, Profit add all these price .-.-
Plus th seller was good, gave me freebies :)
- Etude House Magic Rice Peeling Facial Foam
- Missha Cleansing Tissue
- Missha BB Cream
- Missha SPF42++ Sunblock

HAHAHAHHA! GAIN SO MANY STUFF :D
Been sleeping since noon, internet down and i'm in pain.
Skin complexion got worsen thanks to menses.
And sort of being confirmed it comes 4time a year, not monthly LOL.
Goodbye! TV TIME!

2010-03-22T18:44:00.004+08:00

I'm not in the mood of working tmr, LOL!
And i'm super sleepy now, dad came back early else i'll fall asleep alrdy .
I should start loving being tan LMAO!
Gonna watch tv soon! :D

Well, had steamboat + stir-fry on sat with girlfs.
And the fucking oil is sooooooooooooooo, idk how to explain.
But overall, not bad :)
Next stop is @ Gayan's house! (Y)

And it's really nice to talk to Gaga, she's like never change one!
Always taking care of others first than herself!
Example: Pulling me inside along the road side, ended up switched place with me.
And crossing the road, haiyoh!

Sun, grandparents came out of the sudden,
nothing much but gonna clear stuff when they're gone .
Aunt was nice, she made those ribena type of drink for me :)

Received my ITouch's case, awesome!

Today, Aunty Kat bought desert & other stuff over .
Her shoes, i guess my mum wouldn't really want all . =/
I'm so tempting to buy stuff, but honestly, no money alrdy!
URGH!

Basically i'm summarizing, i'm damn lazy!
GOODBYE! :)

2010-03-18T14:50:00.008+08:00

DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY ELSE YOU GONNA GET HURT
MIGHT/MAYBE MY - A MOMENT OF FOLLY/ANGER WHATEVER.

What the fuck is wrong with romance(/everything) these days?
Making each and everyone so sinful be it you're at which side of romance.
Not to mention, some goes "i can't live".
Please, the world wouldn't sore for you, you wouldn't not be able to live.

At least, for a little bit i'm recovering from my sadness of enrollment stuff,
some ppl will say "can go poly still unhappy for what?".
LMAO, try stepping on the situation then comment .
And now, problem arises and make my mood worse, thanks.

I'm trying to refrain from bursting everything out,
i know eventually i'm the one who's selfish, unreasonable, ridiculous,
so i'm trying okay! I nvr ever said i'm tht good for somebody/something.
I can clearly say, though i choose a path i might not be entirely happy,
but i won't give up life, cause i know there's people much worse worse than me .
Please be awake & mature, we wouldn't die because of anyone(realistically).

So if you wanna talk things out, i'm okay with it,
i can make the decision if you don't want too.

--

From the start, there's no direct answer of anything,
and out of nowhere you asked me were we just friends.
I really don't get you, if we're not normal friends,
what are we? Not even friends or?

--

URGH, GIVE ME A BREAK!
The rain is making me cold...

(Watch this:)

or

(Read this:)
CLICK HERE CLICK HERE CLICK HERE
CLICK HERE CLICK HERE CLICK HERE
CLICK HERE CLICK HERE CLICK HERE
CLICK HERE CLICK HERE CLICK HERE
You might think rape ain't a big deal, but honestly it's a big deal,if you know how to appreciate yourself/you.
I feel that we're wrong to be created by LOVE somehow, not pure love type though.

SO ARE YOU AT THE WORSE?

P/S: Bebe has been the best company!

2010-03-17T15:02:00.006+08:00

Heading out later at night again, but i'm super sleepy now .
Bro just headed out, the weather is so horrible .
Considering of bun-ing my hair later before going out ,
since it's night time, LOL!

Awaiting my 3.30pm show, mwhahha!
Shall visit Gaga's house soon!
Bye :)

Fortune cookies: Fame, riches and romance are yours for the asking.

Still my all-time favorite:

2010-03-16T12:59:00.004+08:00

I'm having difficulty walking now, :(
Shoes can be your worst enemy or best friend forever!
And everything's all about MONEY .

Almost done with the stuff, thank god gaga accompany me,
if not i guess i won't find th way there .
And i'd no reason not to owe gaga a treat now :)
Got the light weighty laptop as expected, so expensive!!
Urgh, why can't laptop price goes further down .

Funny quote: Ugly but the most durable = ThinkPad.
LMAO! That guy is funny, the laptop sure gets damage by the end of the roadshow i guess.
But ended up got Acer, how good will it be if there's Compaq.

Head to Orchard after that, gaga was really nice to walk me over :)
But she's not good, cause she buy soft toy for someone, and nvr buy for me!
Nvm still, she make cheesecake also give others :(
HAHAHAHHAA! Joking!

I'm sticking myself at home today no matter what!
Tmr early morning gonna go out again, back at noon,
night time head to shop again :(
Goodbye!

Dinner for ytd was nice, but freaking cold+full!
& had my fringe cut, so rare my aunty cut properly for me at MY way!

2010-03-14T20:43:00.003+08:00

Firstly, i got to say this,
I'M SO HAPPY I'M MEETING MY GAGA TMR FINALLY!
Though i don't know whether she's happy or not,
and might be only a short while, BUT... At least i can see her before she takes off! :)

Gonna get things done by tmr, submitting enrollment stuff too,
since i'm making a trip over, why not just submit at there instead of posting .
And i'm gonna get light-weighty laptop, currently small one i alrdy complain so heavy .
Too bad i can't get MAC Book, i love that more :(

--

So,watched Alice in Wonderland yesterday,
it's nice actually, except the 3D wasn't really much of 3D.
I expected more effects, LOL!
Can't even had a proper day of watching th movie,
and ended up having headache when i'm back home!

The guy whom sat beside me keep shaking his leg,
then ended up the shaking shakes my chair and tentatively my head goes tht way.
WALAOS, very hard to explain but th feeling is damn awful,
i'm not like watching normal movie, th glasses i need to keep pushing up alrdy -.-

--

Had Pepper Lunch after that with bro & cousins .
Not bad, but freaking bloated after that . -.-
Went to buy screen protector but end up it's wrong one .
That's why bro&i was wondering why so cheap LOL!

--

I'm getting harder to wake up these days without alarm .
I guess i got to train myself else i'm not gonna be on time when sch starts .
SIGH! Blog soon!
Bye :)

This video is kinda (insert your comments),

P/S: This is so nice, but too bad 4inches high, impossible for me!

2010-03-11T17:14:00.003+08:00

JGS is so damn cool & attractive can!
And this movie is nice + awesome! :)
The baby damn cute lah, worth watching ^^

Upcoming work schedule, i got to work full day :(
11am-9pm, walaos, can die for sure one luhs .
Plus i haven't started learning closing .
Filled with stuff to do these days, mind is occupied .
Lessons gonna postpone again, got to contact coach soon .

Goodbye!

Sometimes without someone, your life looks better..

2010-03-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

It feels so nice to smell the air in the morning,
especially when it's raining and nothing on th road .
Sound weird, but honestly, try waking up at 4am when it's raining,
you can smell the air/wind so different from the normal one .

I used to rmb waking up so early in the morning,
whereby my family hasn't woke up, i will grumble for waking so early,
and grumble to bear for XXX days more!
But when in school, seeing friends, this turns off immediately, amazing .

Vaguely, i still rmb one of the rainy day, tearing in the bus,
wishing th bus goes slower, longer, and smoother . LMAO!

--

Anyway, was to work today but end up in-charge sms too slow,
i've already on my way home after my medical examination .
Talking abt this, urgh!
FIRST TIME SEE ONE DOCTOR SO CB!

They asked me to visit at 1.45pm cause appt is at 2pm.
I reached around tht time, end up they're out of lunch,
back at 2pm, why not i go at 2pm =.=
Waited some times, did all the relevant checks,
regretted wearing that givenchy sandals, had a hard time,
need to remove and wear, th nurse keep looking -.-

Waited so long when i've already got appt!
Th doctor doesn't even have the skills of talking honestly,
when my number was called, i went in.
He sort-of ignored me, clicking all stuff on the screen,
then later few mins later, he started looking at the papers needed.

He said: You got to look through yourself and circle all the no(s), i don't have the time to go through one by one with you. Do you have a pen?(Initially wanted to give me his pen) Get it from the nurse instead, you go outside and read through then come back to me.
From my record, you'd migrain etc etc

EH LIKE WTF? A DOCTOR TALK LIKE THAT TO ME?
WHAT THE FUCK IS "I DON'T HAVE TIME"?
DIDN'T I PAY FOR MY MEDICAL EXAMINATION, DID I CAME FOR FREE?

WALAOS, ANGER BOILS CAN!
Then i went outside, circle circle circle,
then went back in, again he let me wait for mins,
then started checking and then sign.
Pass me the stuff and say: you pass all these to the nurse and wait for payment. bye
I JITAO WALK OUT! -.-

If he reform his words to: This is quite alot to go through, how about you going through this yourself first to circle all the irrelevant stuff before reverting back to me later?
If he says that, i will smile and say sure, why not .
A DOCTOR BRAIN CAN BE THT GOOD FOR MEDICAL, BUT NOT FOR HUMAN -.-
Never in my life i experience this type of doctor, even polyclinics tht i don't need to pay a single cents.

Did a survey after tht, specifically say the doctor sucks.
And i even wrote my name & NRIC . LOL .
Th nurses there are awesome although they kept making cold jokes.

Told my mum about it, she said i should have scolded the doctor directly,
but please, i don't scold a ah-gua-wanna-be luhs -.-
Okay, bye!

This song is nice, but th show is a little show in watching :X

I'M WATCHING ALICE IN WONDERLAND SOOOON!
OKAY I'M SLOW I KNOW, SO SHUT UP :)

2010-03-08T13:13:00.007+08:00

Times flies, day by day passes, you wouldn't realise it's over .
Sighs, people around me seems so happy tht i'd a school .
I don't really have that feeling though, LOL .
Got to get used to it for 3years no matter what . :)

Anyway, ytd working ain't tht boring .
There's dance performance downstairs, filled with ppl for the first time!
At first, i went for lunch, manager let me went off early,
so i'd 1hr15mins of break, kept playing TapOut. LOL .
Went back, after dragging time and i thought the competition ends alrdy,
but they just started at 4pm LOL!

So, i'd my pleasant lunch & got to watch performance to kill time .
Before tht i saw all the groups taking turn having their rehearsal,
the second place group was awesome! I thought they will win :(
Entire/each levels filled with people watching, then end up quite a few came in the shop,
cause from my shop can watch the performance, like so weird lah .
Come in nvr buy thing, stand there watch .

End up manager & me also watching,
till her korean friend came, SUPER PRETTY!
During th performance, suddenly those ppl can talk to me,
i was like, smile yahs luhs -.-
Able to see the group from korea perform too, they pass by the shop quite a few times, woah .

Later part, they did some filming for their whatever korean show,
and they started shouting "BREAK OUT, BROKE OUT, BREAK OUT, BROKE OUT"
Then, from upstairs, i saw a girl shouting while taking th escalator,
"OPPA, SARANGHAEYO!"
I looked up O_O!

--

After tht, i was alone at the shop till 7pm.
Sat at the high chair, on itouch to hear songs, LOL! :X
Out of nowhere, i keep singing the song by myself,
customer come in also ask for directions, LOL .

Ms Kim is going back to korea for 10days,
will be working for closing, so i got to learn doing those closing stuff :S
Gotta go this week to see and learn before she flies. sianx 1/2.
Talking about it, i know why the full timer can tahan,
cause they're twins, so they took turns -.-

Gonna do some application when mum's back,
damn sleepy now, tmr going out agn , bye!

I'M SO GONNA WATCH ALICE IN WONDERLAND 3D THIS WEEK!
ONESIA LET'S WATCH SOON! :D

Some stuff will only brings frustration & speechless if you pester.
Control ain't good for both way.

/edited

(CUTE!)

2010-03-07T22:19:00.001+08:00

Working ain't boring today, so lucky they'd event today .
Final dance competition & the grp from Korea came too.
That group still walked past my shop a couple of times with security.
LOL.

Blog tmr!

2010-03-04T13:48:00.005+08:00

WARNING: EMOTIONAL POST AGAIN
My neck, arm are aching like shit, i can't even carry heavy stuff now .
Thanks to overwhelming of movement + sunny sunshine tht cause my skin to go DARKER!
And thank god, i'm working on sunday, so one off day at home with heavy minds.
Lastly i've cleared all lenses, phew!

Luckily, ytd i was back home when SP came,
they almost cut off my electricity & water supply,
cause i saw no one thru my peep hole when i heard his knock,
but end up i open my door, then he walk over .

So .. cutting short, my dad didn't paid 3mths bills,
and they're cutting my supply entirely, FUCK!
SINGAPORE GOVT REALLY THAT DESPERATE FOR MONEY, LAST TIME ONLY ELECTRICITY.
Then th guy so funny with th way he asked me,

SP MAN: May i speak to (pointing to my dad's name)?
Me: Sorry, he's not at home, how about passing me the message?
(Apparently, he's a malay so i got to speak english right!)
SP MAN: How are you related to (name)?
Me: I'm his daughter (if not his wife mehs -.-)

SP MAN: Oh, (he's damn reluctant to speak the issue to me when i know what's going on)
Me: You can just tell my directly, this is not the first time i'm tackling behalf of him.
SP MAN: Okay, so your dad owed (this amt), and his last payment was on feb. I have to cut off all supply if he doesn't make the payment.
(I was thinking, i also know you're going to if not you come for what -.-)

Me: Got it, so how much do we have to pay so you will not cut off now?
(straight to the point since i know what's going on)
SP MAN: Is he going to pay or you gonna pay for him?
Me: He's not in, i don't think i have any choice but to pay for him unless i want the supply to cut right? (HAHA)
SP MAN: Okay, so you gonna pay? How much can you pay?
(His expression is so shock that i'm gonna pay)
Me: Hmms, how about $400?
SP MAN: Cannot, at least $550.
(I feel like scolding, where the hell am i gonna give birth money!)
Me: That's too much, i don't have that much, it's not my dad paying.

(The guy is super good! Like can bargain @ market like that)
SP MAN: Like that, okay you pay $450? That's the extent i can go for you.
Me: Okay, by 4pm right.
SP MAN: Yes, give me a call after that so i can key in the data for you,
if not 6pm others come cut off.
Me: Okay, thank you!
(Immediately, i start panicking where to get the money -.-)

My bro&i wanted to use our angbao money but my mum say cannot .
Zzz, then $450 i got so much mehs, somemore by 4pm, machiam got kidnap need ransom like that!
Then ended up, my mum called my dad, they quarrel, dad vent on me -.-
Parents quarrel, children also suffer, true right!
Dad only got $200, so i found way to get the balance and settle it within my dad&i.

And mum came home, kp me help him pay -.-
Walaos, don't help then see supply cut nvm, still need see them quarrel like no tmr.
I jitao go toilet, lock myself inside for half an hr -.-
Of course i bring my itouch inside to surf net lah!

--

I got my enrollment package ytd, but to my (surprise), i'm not happy at all.
I haven't even go through any details, i just dump at my table.
I always thought, having the enrollment package, i'll be super happy,
but it doesn't seems so, and i can't tell anyone .

Okay, i did run through roughly,
see the course fee, tuition fee, laptop fee etc ,
all is (KA-CHING) lui(MONEY)!
And yes, medical checkup by next week, tht's all i see .
I was thinking of course transfer & my last hope of DAE @ NYP.
But i don't think there's much hope over there .

I thought my mum would understand me,
but when i wanted to speak about it over the fone with her,
she say: now you wanna consider again? either you work or study, tht's all.
but is the laptop needed? (LIKE DUH-.-)
Is the choice just tht simple? Mayb i should feel so,
cos i've said before i'm not pleasing myself but others.

I never felt more horrible holding that enrollment package,
but i know i got to endure & get it on .
But who's willingly to let me rely & guide me through?
It sound like such a burden to the person if there is .
No matter how much sorrow, i got to swallow & not cry.

I like the effect of water, because it'll stop your thinking.
Bro&i was saying whenever you're in water & up, you feel so much better, true.
In water, you got to breathe and concentrate on things tht is not tht hard.
See, emotional right -.-

--

I always like this novel, nth much to do so i re-read again(3rd time alrdy) :)
I found the novel online, so it's like easy readable!
Click below, there's 3 volume & it's chinese ^^
If you stay by your comp for the whole day or 2 days, you'll finish it for sure.
Cause it's super funny and the suspense is good.

1. 惹我你就死定了第一部
2. 惹我你就死定了第二部
3. 惹我你就死定了第三部

Another one tht you won't wanna miss if you like above one!

1. 那小子真帅
2. 那小子真帅2（终结篇）

Goodbye :)

P/S: I think many companies are cursing me, cause i submitted resume,
but i didn't accept their call, be it telemarketer, beauty advisor short-listed.
LOL, no mood i guess .

/edited

Guys nowadays, like to wear this on their wrist(see above)
my bro has been wearing, and he's finding th white one .
Happened to wear like tht out tht day for fun,
end up th shape imprint on my wrist after one hr under th sun -.-

2010-03-02T22:29:00.001+08:00

Blogging with itouch, lying on my bed , listening to first kiss. Feeling kinda sleepy after having tanner stuff, lol! Hmms, I'm restraining myself from everything & everyone. Like I'm afraid smth might happen or wadever, stupid thought but I can't seems to help it luhs. Sometimes I just times turns back to original life with no such person/thing happening. :/ might be watching Alice in wonderland on Sunday :) :) easily satisfy like a kid, insert laughter :X goodbye!!

2010-03-01T09:44:00.003+08:00

Driven to the extreme way, now you'll see me avoiding,
no, disappearing, unless i'll let you know,
if not you wouldn't see me .

Nobody will ever notice you unless they need you in their life for reasons.
Be wise & realistic, no point deceiving yourself tht it's not th fact Lol.

2010-02-26T10:34:00.005+08:00

Not enuff long fringe :(

Would be busy packing lenses these days .
Sometimes i find myself a waste to have a fone,
when my mood is so turn-off and i got to reply sms -.-
It's like trying to please (some)ppl but not myself.
Give me sometime to adapt, if you can't stand by me, i cant do anything .

And, why is my horoscope so true zzzzzzzzzzzz!

Daily Reading:
There could be some sort of entertaining event connected with work today, Scorpio, and it is important to listen to what others have to say. A very strong sign of your receiving an important message is present, and it comes from someone being sponsored or cared for in some way. At any rate, be alert for this upcoming message; expect to be pleasantly surprised at what you hear. Above all, a door to opportunity is opening really soon, maybe today. The price to get through the door is extending the hand of friendship.

Love:
You are not going to be happy with your romantic situation, Scorpio, until you let go a little bit of control. Yes this is advice you are given frequently, and you may simply need to start taking other's viewpoints a little more seriously right now. Overall any relationships you could enter in this period will be energetic, but you may simply not be ready for the changes you want. Control is an issue for you, and this has been a problem in many of your relationships, so if you want this one to work, you are going to have to hand over the reigns a little bit. There is someone with a particularly creative side that is very interested in the energy that you have to offer, but until they see you let go a little of your infamous control, they aren't going to take the steps toward you that you would like.

Cookie:
Don't forget, you are always on our minds.

Goodbye!
P/S: I feel like locking my blog -.-

/Edited

Can't pack lenses unless dad's back T-T
Been listening to this song, th mv i don't like,
but th song is super nice, somehow you can feel th pain he's singing.
Nice one~ :)

BRO WENT FOR MOVIE TODAY *ANGRY*
Next time he forget take keys, I WONT OPEN FOR HIM! :D

Happen to click on this blog, it's the first time i read abt live-blogging abortion issue.
Click on image to read more.

Bye again!

2010-02-25T13:27:00.006+08:00

Blog before heading for my bathe, i kept re-watching You're Beautiful scene,
ended up i haven't watch this week's Autumn's Concerto :X
And finally all th songs of the drama i've have them :)
Lee Hong Ki's voice is honestly nice, JGS also!!!

Okay, well, i'm super tired, lost stamina alrdy .
So i'm typically "sunburnt", my skin is reddish under running warm water,
and it's fucking obvious i'm "tanned", my mum said my face dull :(
Whatever, tried whitening(last time), end up will got said, you went for suntan?.
Most stupid ever comment can! URGH! BROKE MY HEART T-T

Anyway, it's aching but not as worse as last time when i started i think ? O.O
Again, disappointment hit me, TP's DAE unsuccessful, but well, expected .
And i don't think i'm gonna re-appeal , sighs!
Life's unfair, nvr given an approriate chance! :(

Sooooo, i should say, seriously if there's a chance to rewind,
i won't be like this today, i will dump all stupid irrelevant stuff aside,
and study well during secondary school times, but ay, time will rewind mehs -.-
Don't be stupid saying don't want study, want quit school, you'll regret,
that will be worse path ever without any education!
Think about future in all kinds of way, as a newbie, unwed, wedded, beng/lian,
everything also need knowledge, just whether where are you absorbing th knowledge .

Good education path of course is study,
Newbie - Can you survive well at current/future society with tht pathetic few piece of paper, of course you need to keep improving.
Unwed - Can you support yourself? Support your family?
Parents aged, and while they aged, we mature, and we got to take care of them.
Wedded - Can you support the so-call family, with planning or not,
are you gonna be stuck at home, with only one side supporting,
from my parents, i see one-side is never enough, who knows one day tht side collapse, whr to rely? tht's why both my parents works.
Beng/Lian - Might not need those paper, also need knowledge to scold vulgar, deal with problems right, ain't the same?

I'm stuck at home, so i came to realise so much,
impossible i'm gonna work $5/hr sales job at this current situation.
Th $5 won't be able to last long, even if you're working 12hrs daily or whatever.
And lastly, what are your family/relatives gonna see you?
Yahs, can easily say don't care what they say/look luhs, are you so sure we can.
As a human, our heart still aches when we hear stuff we avoid/hurt.

Ignore these stuff, i'm just analysing for MYSELF TO READ CAN!
Now say so much also no use, sighs!
Clench my teeth and go harder!

I'm not busy these days, but i'm totally not in any mood to talk in msn/phone/sms.
So if you're angry or whatever, i can't do anything,
i'm not in a mood in everything, honestly everything.
I just hope my mind can stop thinking -.-
I don't need any console too.

Goodbye, (below - my baby!)
P/S: They're from HongKong, GAGA YOU CAN BUY FOR ME WHEN YOU GO BACK, MEHAHHA! :X

Some better mood song;

2010-02-24T20:16:00.002+08:00

Now i know why Onesia say she prefer Jeremy(Lee Hong Ki),
he's total cuteness + th scene he cried damn emotional luhs .
Yes, i've finished You're Beautiful :)

Damn niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ^^
Jang Geun Suk still th coolest one! :D :D :D
His other show look doesn't look tht nice luhs =x
Th songs are awesome too, okay gonna pack my stuff .

Got so youtube videos up (:

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WATCH ALL! Goodbye :)

2010-02-23T19:39:00.002+08:00

Don't have th proper time to blog, addicted to You're Beautiful. LOL .
Onesia intro this show, super nice!
Now i'm super addicted to Jang Geun-suk in tht show .

I guess my earpiece spoilt, time to chng another one again :)
Haven't got to upload my baby(doll) photos,
mum said now tht's my baby, quite true lehs! :)

Okay, blog soon! CIAOS!

(LOVE LOVE LOVE!)

P/S: Th song is also nice! Finding them.

2010-02-20T22:30:00.003+08:00

Currently blogging using itouch, I'm super tired! :(
had lunch @ jumbo Clarke quay.
Pretty fun but my head is practically splitting. Took 4 pills of panadols yet it's nt working! Tmr gonna go out, shld be resting soon.

Partly mum&dad is gonna argue, thanks to money matters and mum was saying ltr part cfm need me help pay bills for my dad, and I've got no income alrdy!!
Worse still i spent alot today plus just paid my own bill as requested zzz.

Th doll I fell for at Central had offer so bought 2 of it at $138.
K, you gonna say I'm a spendthrift but I love it!!!
And finally got my jar from Sticky :)
awesomeeeeee, & got to thanks Rachel for telling me,
I didn't visit B1, aunt bought 8packs to bring back to china, mum say "thanks" to my euthu&intro. WAHAH! Okay, enuff of tapping my screen of my itouch, goodbye :)

p/s: girlf, I believe both of you won't cross th path, so unluck can!! :x
post all photos tmr, grandma&grandpa "Jin Hun" le! 50yrs of marriage

2010-02-19T22:22:00.001+08:00

Best is not to talk, because misunderstand occurs,
and things will get worse.
Perhaps tht's th reason why i don't like talking nowadays .

URGH, i'm damn sleepy now .
Gonna head out for tmr & th day after .
Bye!

2010-02-18T22:36:00.003+08:00

(Thanks to daylight effect! Foundation-less face,swollen face -.-)
& CNY DIY-nails.

Folding incense paper for sunday preparation, my fingers are filled with th colors.
And it's red, so whenever i wash with soap,
there's red pigment drops, WAHAHAHH . :X
Went down to Grandma house at about 1-2pm .

I'm getting hard to sleep, so i shld divert all my attention .
Attending lesson next week, YAY! :)
Finally i'm putting words to actions!! = EXP
Still considering whether should i take the full-time job back at Novena .
But i'll be bored to death one luhs, can i work 4days/week :(

I need money, expecting myself to spend more this mth,
since mum forking out half of my stuff,
and and she haven't return me $300++!!
I'M POOR, BROKE, BROKEN, WHATEVER!

That day mum asked me to try luck buy 4D,
but end up, queue till so outside, i say no fate -.-
She pop by earlier to buy, and she was inside, sigh!

--

Anyway, got some sponsor nail art via mail,
but i'm thinking how to use them when my nail glue is spoilt,
thanks to exposing to air -.-
Goodbye!

P/S: I'M STILL HEAD OVER HEELS WITH I GOT FOOLED BY YOU
^{How many fools have you been in your life?
Always thinking tht's th person you can trust,
but yet end up, truth slaps you awake..
But stand up, to thanks th person for betraying you..}

2010-02-17T22:28:00.002+08:00

I'm keen on taking up many lessons, but no money T-T
Wanted to get a new cupboard & 3-in-1 printer,
but mum say my dad sure won't let me get new cupboard one,
since mine is not long bought only :(

Told mum i'm getting emotion-less .
So don't get me wrong if you feel i'm treating you cold,
i really can't help it =/

Th song is sometimes back, but i love this song!
Still finding th translation.

and this! <3
Square 2 performance before!

Goodbye :)

2010-02-16T11:39:00.002+08:00

(awesome!)

So long since i've slept so long, WAHAHHA .
Didn't went out today, resting at home, like so good can!
I'm freaking tired, but got to get some stuff done though .
Woke up at 10.30am, LMAO ~

CNY routine is almost the same every year luhs ,
here and there, talk/ask about studies etc etc .
Never chng one luhs, sianx 1/2 .
Red packets ain't alot lah, alot is squashing their pocket alrdy.
More of watching tv the whole day, and seeing those guys play .

One by one getting older alrdy, still play block catching -.-
Smallest cousin from China, (i used to be th only girl, but now i'm not)
she love seeing them play and also talk non-stop one .
Due to some reason, ain't happy with them* .

Dad went off to work ytd, while my mum & i walked outside,
th smallest cousin thought we're leaving, insert conversation(imagine china's tone)
Cousin: Ni men(mer) yao zhour le ma(mar)?(Are you all leaving alrdy?)
Me: Dui luhs, byebye! :) (Yeah, byebye!)
Cousin: Na(narrr) ta neee? (How about him?)
Me: Who?
Cousin: Jun Mao norrr
Me: Huh? Who?
Cousin: Jun Mao arrrhhh
Me: HUH?! TA JIAO JUN MAO?! (by then i'm bursting into laughter, and she's damn shy, she run into th house while i go find my mum and tell her, we're laughing like mad)

She doesn't know my bro's name, and ended up calling him "JUN MAO".
Honestly, i can't help myself to admire her for inventing such name .
We went back to tell my grandma they all, all laugh like mad .
But i'm th misery one, my bro wet his hand and wipe on my hair whenever i call him :(

Went another house afterward, stayed there fucking long, and i'm getting restless .
Mum & aunty wanted to watch movie at Jurong Point since we're near thr,
but th show is like 7pm, by then what time alrdy -.-
So sort of quarrel, Ben came to convince us to go, end up also never go .
Cause it'll be late by then, cabbed home afterward.

My mind is not working again, i'm so tired of everything.
Bye! :)

2010-02-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

Kinda emo now honestly, sigh!
Just received RP's DAE Result, ain't successful .
I don't think i'd any hope for the rest of the poly,
when RP is th easier to enroll . :(

Should i really take up th course tht had been offered to me?
But i don't think it's suitable for me =/
Please give me advice will you . Sigh .
What a cny news for me man!

Seems like nothing is going smooth,
no longer working at th place alrdy,
and now this stupid studies has been making my pathway so difficult.
Why can't i be abit more normal , i know this is self-remorse .

So tired :(
I've got no mood for anything yet i can't show emotions out .
I've not been in a talking on the fone mood these days too .
Goodbye.

2010-02-11T22:36:00.002+08:00

PHEW, LUCKILY I PASSED MY BRIDGING - BUSINESS ENVIRONMENT,
If not i got to find money to re-bridge, bless me man! :)
Lazy to blog recently, busy reading novel again .
Th novel is super nice, damn funny & drama one, hahha!

Anyway, ytd went mandai with mum, gladly no monkeys,
i guess it's because there's more people, cause it's cny mah .
Waiting for a cab is super long -.-
And th guy behind me keep standing so close, irritating -.-

Bought some stuff, and get some stuff settled .
I'm still thinking of getting my Blackberry .
Saw th leaflet, sign up for ibanking or do a bank trsf, gets a chance to win 9700 BB,
LIKE CRAP! I've done so many trsf, why nvr win T-T

Mum say she must win first prize of 4D then can buy th fone for me .
Second prize of 4D to buy with plan, like she will win -.-
Went to borrow books, carry so many things still borrow books,
end up take cab home, i pay -.- PEAK HRS SOMEMORE!!!!

Went grandma house today, if grandma didn't call me at 9am,
i don't think i'll be awake,
dragged till noon then bus over, and got my medi in case .
Th weather is horrible luhs . =/

Tmr gonna go out too, tired -.-
Everyday sleep after 12am, WAHAHAHAH .
Goodbye! :)

2010-02-09T08:53:00.004+08:00

Year of Tiger, here's smth for CNY!
She's still the awesome one! :)
She's wearing EOS Max Pure Green, th one tht she wore for Avatar look.

Enjoy!

Blog later, watching Down With Love! <3

/Edited ; 2.42pm

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

Down With Love is really nice, but epi every week once,
sianx 1/2 -.-

I never experience lift terror before, count myself lucky .
Only get to see lift breakdown in tv prog,
but just now th lift terror hits me though th lift didn't breakdown.
Th split seconds, i swear your heart can jump out of your mouth!

Was planning to get a drink downstairs,
took my wallet & keys , without my handphone,
honestly i'm getting th habit of not bringing,
cause everytime go down, my bro sure go with me one .

Then when th lift closed, GOT SIREN SOUND COMING!
Still not enough scary, SIREN SOUND + TH LIFT DOOR LOOKS LIKE IT CANNOT OPEN(STRUGGLING).
I quickly press OPEN, cannot OPEN also, walaos!
Th split seconds, i REGRETTED for not taking my fone,
got 2fone, should just take one right, also not so heavy! -.-

Then th lift stop, goes down, and i'm like counting storey,
fucking scare it may hang in between,
5...
4...
3...
2...
1....
CAUSE I STAY FIFTH FLOOR CAN!

WAH LAO, I TELL YOU!
TH FEELING IS SIBEI RELIEVED ONE!!!!!!
So.... end up i took th stairs back since i'm lazy to walk to another lift,
and walk back from 6th floor, like so mafan!

I actually wanted to tell my bro,
but ay, don't want lah, let him experience th feeling,
since he'd never tried before, WAHAHHA . *evil* :)

--

Girlf cried th whole morning, keep hearing her cry .
Haiyoh, i also don't know what to say liaos .
Typical console jiu shi:
1. Let go
2. Don't cry
3. Find a better one
4. Time heals
5. Guys are bastards(Hit me!)
6. Give each other some space first

BUT.....,
my new console method abit more creative,
is calling Girlf to learn to cook Baked Pasta for me :D
So i can have a meal for FREE, and no need do myself lehs!
Clever right! ;)
I guess she'll kill me on thurs if she saw this .

Keep canceling our meet up day,
should be tmr, then i cancel alrdy .
Cause tmr going out with mum to visit MONKEY(!!!!) .
Those who understand, good for you, dont understand, too bad!

ANYONE IS WILLINGLY TO PROVIDE FREE TOUCH UP FOR MY HAIR! T-T
NO MONEY GO DYE HAIR LEH , MY BLACK ROOTS SO FAST COME OUT!!!
HOW CAN THEY BE SO UNFAIR TO MY MONEY!

Goodbye! :)

2010-02-08T20:25:00.003+08:00

Firefox new personalization is damn damn cool! :)
Laptop & desktop crashed at the same time,
had a hard time getting all these done! Urgh!
Worse thing is, everything's gone :(

Luckily some were saved in my thumbdrive .
Changed my blogskin too, YAY! :)
Went to check out th price of th blackberry, $248 CNY promo .
I'm really thinking hard, should i? :>

I'm still watching tv, so goodbye! ;)

/Edited
Fucking true!

Romance schmomance for you, right Scorpio? That is not to say you don't enjoy the passion and intensity that comes with that, but right now you are looking for a break

2010-02-07T22:49:00.003+08:00

1. I'm super duper agitated, msn tio virus, can't download new one.
2. I'm super duper angry, got to reformat entire laptop(tmr).
3. I'm super duper tired, got a painful headache currently, thanks to grandma's house noisy atmosphere & unwanted stuff to do.
4. I'm super duper envy cousin's laptop, how can it be so nice!!!!!
(Onesia, give it to me! ^^)
BUT! Uncle Eric's ACER is much chio-er, got led light from the keyboard one!!! & super duper functional & up-to-date,
And i know why he can get it, $4.8k pay per mth! How good!
5. I'm really hateful towards iLoveIM.com , it sucks honestly .
6. I still don't like IPhone, i want a blackberry, B.B :D
7. Stupid blogskin haven't got settled yet either .
8. Today is all about sitting cars to places, LOL.
9. I WANT A BLACKBERRY 9700! $958, DROP DOWN FROM TH SKY TY!
10. Girlf, cheer up! :) Wounds will heal.

2010-02-05T19:56:00.002+08:00

So long since i've played with a baby,
super kutezxzxzx canzxzxzx!!! :)
Went Grace's house just now, th baby is super cute,
th moment she sees me, she keep giggling ,
if you ignore her, she will cry loudly . LMAO!!

Th baby look mixed blood type, guess it's adopt one,
since they can't have one . That's why mum is saying,
some ppl wan to get a kid , whole life can't,
some don't want, give birth alot .

Ytd, went Bishan .
Had dinner @ Crystal Jade, i paid -.-
Buy stuff, and saw Poh Seng .
He busy talking on th fone, so he didn't serve ppl,
my mum said why nobody want serve one, LOL .
Then i told her, tht guy my friend .

My mum walked back to see, =.=
Then she say: Ji shuai yi xia de.
I replied: Ya, yi xia only, bu shuai liaos .
Hahahhaha!

Chatted with Christina over thr, super pretty,
not to mention her hair is super long & beautiful .
Wanna cab home at 10pm, wait so long no cab -.-
And in between got things, lazy say .

Most of th ppl there end up booking cab, including us .
$3.50 like that fly, but th uncle very funny one .
Chat till one topic, he say got one christian tell him,
her church pastor every morning 4am go hug big tree, must be big big one,
then th tree will take away all illness, tht's why th pastor damn healthy .

Then we started joking, we must go find big tree liaos,
hug th big tree then we can live healthy,
then reaching home, he say "here no big tree, u all cnt hug".
Xiao daooooooo~

--

URGH, I MISS THT CUTE DAOOOOOOOO, BABY!
Goodbye!

2010-02-03T10:41:00.006+08:00

(Cool!)

I can die without sufficient sleep, who say human needs less sleep as they grow old?!
WHO THE HELL MADE THAT LOGIC CAN KILL HIM/HERSELF THANK YOU!
Slept at 1am, and awake at 7.45am after mum slamming the door shut,
seriously, sleeping at a room near door is not good! -.-
So lucky tht my bro didn't disturb me yet still woke up early .

Had my bathe yet, I STILL FEEL SLEEPY, WORSE WITH FLU!
And tmr i gonna work again, i prepared to sleep later,
so i can watch 11pm show again, SHOUT YAY! :)

Ytd woke up early, prepared & went for work .
As usual, bored to the max, but lucky Ms Kim came out to chat with me,
if not you will see a retail assistant doze off at th counter .
Ms Kim very random, ask me i got boyf, then ask about val day,
clever me, i turn back to ask her, she say she alone here,
then i say you can find local boyf, she say not really, korea prefer their own .

And from ytd, then i know korean also got religion one!!!!

Kid supplement is going well ytd, due to radio&tv commercial,
this is very great influence luhs!
Customer came in, just say i wan this type this type and buy .
They had th highs of saying thank you in korean, so i kept hearing -.-

There's a girl whom came in twice today, keep taking th ginseng candy!
Ms Kim said she came a few times alrdy, claiming to buy for her mum,
ask this price, tht price, which good then say i will ask my mum -.-
She actually take th sweet th moment she walk in, BUEY PAISEH ONE LEH!
And i guess she's been here taking alot of times alrdy, cos ytd she took twice ytd.
She asked one qn, i find it hilarious, does multi-vitamin gives harm to us?. -.-

Another couple came in, even more funny, his wife is buying ginseng honey,
then th husband ask how much is this ginseng candy in a pack,
$15.90, th husband was like WAH SO EXPENSIVE, next moment,
while Ms Kim is taking changes, he took 2/3candy and stuff into his pocket,
seriously i despise Singaporean doing such thing luhs .
Please lah, ginseng is expensive product, but th candy is fucking cheap,
the candy is non-chewable, and th smell chng ur entire breathe, you can imagine how thick.

So after tht, Ms Kim & i was saying they just take like tht,
and it's th 2nd packet she opened alrdy, and she won't be opening,
unless customers wanna try & buy it. Sound correct what!
And th chry tea is awesome, i kept picking th flower and boil for myself :X

--

Having a hard time wearing my new shoes, slightly heel-ed and i can die of walking -.-
After work, girlf came to find me at my house downstair,
chat, slack, rot etc etc .

While she quarrel with her boyf, i offer tissue paper :D
Then i tell her, $0.10/pcs even though it's not mine, MWHAHAH!
Ransacked her bag to find stuff to play with,
and i found new toy :) ---- HER SPECTS!

I kept telling her: ji style yi xia de wor~
But look quite auntie, is style auntie also lah! :)
I look swollen in my photo, LMAO LMAO LMAO!

Girlf is seriously stupid + silly + (insert whatever),
i thought she went home, ended up went to his house downstair -.-

Okay, my eyes closing liaos, 2.30pm i still wanna watch tv!!!
Goodbye! :)

2010-02-01T14:42:00.005+08:00

Out of nowhere, my wrist is aching like mad -.-
Tmr working, yet my mood is under tuned off .
Wanna watch 11pm show tonight, but i'm sure if i watch,
tmr no need wake up alrdy .
With nobody disturbing me, i actually woke up at 10am .

Time is so limited yet i'm wasting time . (Insert laughter)
But this is life, different perspective too .
Sometimes, it's not reality is cruel but it's you feel the world owes you.
Mum was asking me about studies ytd, and she ask what if DAE doesn't go thru?
Then i said, will really consider th course tht is offered to me,
she then say, if you don't like why consider?
One thing she got to agree with me, we live our life not for ourselves .

I said, if making myself unhappy, yet making others contented, why not .
At least she, my dad, whoever will stop everything,
including me, all are tired of this alrdy mah .
At least this decision can silence everybody for upcoming 3years .

Honestly, i can't concentrate, Feng Yun II is super exciting now .
Don't understand why last time i don't like,
tmr got to work cannot watch alrdy :(

Considering in getting th Corby fone, should i?
$250 w/o contract :>
Goodbye! :)

--

I know i'm ridiculous, i know i'm selfish & unreasonable,
but i'm trying to apologise ytd,
yet what i received was "whatever", "i dont care" .
I don't understand how you feel, tht's my fault too .

Fairly, it's my fault, fairly, i deserve this .
I've got nothing more to say when this is th case ,
whatever you want this to be, it's up to you alrdy .

--

I guess skipping anti-botics is totally no good,
after 2days not taking, my throat & body doesn't feel well .
I shld listen well, and complete th whole course, sigh .
Ciaos (:

/edited

THIS SHOW IS STILL AWESOME! ^^

I've got th urge to delete all my posts, LOL!

2010-01-30T13:35:00.003+08:00

Yay, finally i'm away from the horrible sickness!
Urgh, i swear it's way way horrible + terrible!
Alone at home now, mum&bro went out alrdy .
Someone's enjoying at Chalet hur!

Had fever + painful sore throat out of nowhere,
was thinking isit because i'm feeling awful tht's why this happen? *ponder*
Starting wasn't fever, just damn pain sore throat,
wanna go down to see doctor, i still can sit outside play one game of Lady Gaga,
then went in, they say doctor only will be here at 2pm .

WTF!? Since when got so sway one!
Go clinic no doctor?!!??!?!
Okay, wanna get my b'fast, took 5steps, turn back home cause i'm restless .
Went home to slp, took temperature per hr, keep going up -.-
Headed for bathe, came out freaking cold, temp ain't going down .
Called th clinic, they say doctor coming soon, 2.30pm .

(3TIMES PER DAY)

WALAOS , THIS IS WHY I'M SWAY PLUS GETTING WORSE .
Seen doctor, came back, medi after food, drank one cup of milo,
feeling so terrible till i can't sleep .
Out of sudden, feel like vomiting -.-
Luckily i took a plastic bag while wrapping like a dumpling on th sofa .

And honestly, thank god my bro is at home cause th plastic bag leak .
He got another plastic bag for me swiftly, vomit till i cry madly -.-
Had a hard hard time! AWFUL :(
Didn't work for today&tmr, and even miss my date from tht busy girlf whom revolves boyf only!!!! SEE LAH, HER FAULT RIGHT! :(

But will be working on weekdays since next weekend had reunion,
and thanks for th illness, i can at least recover before reunion ^^
Since i'm so bored, and mum's psycho-ing me not to do mani,
i'm self-trying at home with my limited colors -.- Sianx 1/2.

Ciaos, tv soon! (:

2010-01-27T09:17:00.002+08:00

Freak freak freak, woke up at 6am to call my bro wake up,
and same thing i received msg at 6am from unknown number .
Was thinking for sure it's advertisement,
ended up is my posting result -.-

Got into the course i didn't wanted, but at least a place?
Ay, i don't know lah, fucking irritated now .
And horoscope stir me after reading -.-

An opportunity regarding travel or education could arrive today, Scorpio. It may be that this was something you were unsure of happening, because the planetary configurations indicate the lifting of a worry or burden from the mind. There are also indications of your adapting to new circumstances or developing new alliances. It is important for you to realize that when it is time for you to rise, you will rise to the level of your peers. It's been said a million times, but it's not lonely at the top. It's crowded at the bottom.

Zhun bo? -.-

2010-01-26T13:01:00.003+08:00

My house is blasted with FM 91.3, LMAO!
I realise no matter how early i sleep, i still feel sleepy -.-
Do i have any unknown illness?
On my radio this morning, th music blast out tio shocked -.-

Work is cancelled due to full timer found,
so i'll be working on weekends only ^^
Might be little pay, but better than nothing .
At least no need wake up early liaos, hoho!

People has been chasing Hi My Sweetheart like mad,
yet i still prefer to watch Autumn's Concerto,
it's mad nice lah!
After tht, no mood for Hi My Sweetheart,
just watch latest episode this morning, pretty nice though .

No blogging inspirations, my Ipod Touch arrived :D
Goodbye.

There's a joke i've been laughin since ytd, idk why =.=
(Read below)

Little Janice was not the best student in Sunday school. Usually she slept through class. One day the teacher called on her while she was napping, "Tell me Janice, who created the universe?" When Janice didn't stir, little Johnny, a boy seated in the chair behind her, took a pin and jabbed her in the rear.

"God Almighty!" shouted Janice and the teacher said, "Very good" and Janice fell back asleep.

A while later the teacher asked Janice, "Who is our Lord and Saviour." But, Janice didn't even stir from her slumber. Once again, Johnny came to the rescue and stuck her again.... See More

"Jesus Christ!" shouted Janice and the teacher said, "Very good," and Janice fell back asleep.

Then the teacher asked Janice a third question. "What did Eve say to Adam after she had her twenty-third child?" and again, Johnny jabbed her with the pin.

This time Janice jumped up and shouted, "If you stick me with that thing one more time, I'll break it in half and stick it up your ass!"

... the teacher fainted!

/Edited

My black roots are coming out, so fast can!
I guess touch up is for sure before cny!!
And my red highlight has faded :(

Tying bun for my hair is so hard, since aunty cut so layer-ed .
And short, why would i forget to mention this .
&& my new opened gray lens, this lenses is damn damn gray! AWESOME!
Dull complexion, why can't i born to be whiter, like pale ghost? LMAO!

2010-01-23T17:01:00.000+08:00

I'm super duper crazy in buying stuff,
especially chanel inspired, LMAO!
And i'm super duper sad for my hair, still :(
Byebye!

2010-01-22T22:37:00.003+08:00

Yay, not working tmr :D
Working on sunday & 4days next week .
Busy packing stuff, but i'm so tired alrdy .
Byebye! :)

And YAY! tiny winy pay to cover my hole spent ytd :)